Over The Moon
It’s all JKR’s. Gained a warm fuzzy feeling, but that's about it.
You can read what you like into this story. I know what I mean. Oh, and
although it won't make much sense now, Winter Aconites are also known as wolfs
Dedication: Yeah, thanks to my awesome beta, who despite my fears is really
nice and encouraging. Kudos Felina. Also hugs and malleting to Riva, for often
beating my stories out of me…ouch…
in the dying light of the warm March sun, four boys with their broomsticks
headed back to Hogwarts Castle.
you see my capture?” James Potter said, spinning around and reaching out his
hand in a reenactment of his earlier glory.
play that good in the Cup final, we’re sure to win.”
must be the greatest seeker in the world!!” Remus said sarcastically.
well, I wouldn’t go that f… Oh you were being sarcastic.”
think James is the best seeker I’ve ever seen.” Peter said adoringly.
ruffled his hair playfully, “You mustn’t of seen many good seekers then ‘ay?”
frowned, “Well, no but I still think James is the best.”
and Sirius laughed, James looked annoyed and Peter just looked confused.
suddenly frowned, “I've got a bit of a headache, I think I'll go to the
hospital wing.” He said, handing Peter his broom. "Don't expect me back
before morning, you know how Madam Pomfrey is, she'll have me in bed all night
with a suspected brain cold or something." He forced a chuckle to reassure
his friends and hurried off hastily away from the pitch.
other three boys watched him go.
does he always run off like that?" Sirius
pondered as Peter put all their brooms in the broom closet.
do you mean?" James asked trying to avoid the subject. James had a pretty
good idea where Remus went, and he didn't think Sirius would like it if he
always disappears for a night, faking some excuse about being sick and he comes
back the next day beaten and bruised.” Sirius said, almost annoyed, “I think we
should find out what he's doing, if he's in some sort of trouble, we have to
Remus needed our help, he'd ask." James replied shortly.
maybe he can't. Maybe he's trapped under some horrible curse and he can't tell
anyone." Sirius said.
grimaced at Sirius's oddly accurate guess. "Maybe he doesn't want us to
know. He doesn't have to tell us everything, Sirius."
I think he's in trouble. We have to follow him and find out what's wrong."
looked around desperately for a way out. "Alright, you say we follow him,
I say we don't, what does Peter say?" Peter was a scaredy-cat at heart,
surely he'd vote with James.
up with Remus, he shouldn't have to bear it alone." Peter said decisively.
James cursed silently. Damn Peter and his nobility!
we'll follow him. But promise me this, whatever we find, Remus is still our
gave James a quizzical look, "Duh, he's our friend! That's why we're doing
this." This he said as the three of them set out after their friend,
Sirius leading bodily, full of noble intentions.
sighed in relief as the Whomping Willow stopped flailing its limbs and
proceeded to act like a normal tree. He slipped silently into the passage
below, hoping no one had seen him. It would have been easier to enter the
tunnel unnoticed under the cover of night, but then it would be too late.
let out a cry of surprise as Remus approached the Whomping Willow, stilled it’s
branches, and suddenly disappeared. He crouched motionless behind a spreading
oak. Not sure of how to proceed. James gave a little cough, “I think he pressed
the knot on the tree with that stick.” He said, avoiding Sirius’ eyes, “And
that’s what stopped it.”
gave James a confused nod, and ventured forwards to the still motionless tree.
James and Peter followed as he crept into the hidden tunnel.
three boys snuck along the corridor, keeping Remus in sight but fearful of
getting too close. Sirius felt his heart beating faster, danger had always
excited him, but it had rarely given him goose bumps before. There was
something terribly foreboding about this tunnel.
suddenly wanted to turn back and run for the Castle, but it was to late now.
Remus had reached a door at the very end of the passage. He looked behind him
once, but he obviously hadn't expected any one to follow.
shrunk into the shadows. Remus' eyes hovered for a moment on the shadow barely
hiding the three boys, but he seemed satisfied. He closed the door with a snap,
and Sirius heard several locks being done up.
a short pause, Sirius crept up to the door. He tried the handle, but it was
no good," James said turning away, "We'll have to go back."
could easily kick the door down." Sirius said taking a few steps back.
ahead, frighten Remus half to death, and piss off what ever else is in there.
Not to mention breaking school property." It was a long shot but James had
about that spell we learnt in Charms?” Peter suggested “ Al…Alaiha..."
Sirius whispered. They heard the lock click open, and he turned the knob.
no luck. Peter scratched his head.
well, I'm sure Remus will-" James began but Peter interrupted him.
it’s guarded by magic.”
course, Finite Incantatem.” Sirius said, surprised and pleased that Peter had
had two good ideas in a row.
door slid slightly open, squeaking on its rusted hinges, but the squeak was
muffled by a much louder and scarier noise.
single cold, pain filled howl.
leapt forward with a yell, "Remus!"
the dripping fanged mouth that faced him certainly wasn't his best friend.
was a wolf's muzzle alright, but clinging to the wolf’s body was a ragged
Hogwarts uniform that cut into the creature’s flesh as it struggled to
break free. And the eyes, a cool calm blue, quite out of place on the snarling
beast, were just like Remus'.
wolf snapped and growled, but it was chained to the floor with a huge metal
collar around its waist. It strained and scratched at the chain. From the look
of the bending metal, the beast wouldn't be chained much longer.
tried to make sense of the scene in front of him, but all he could think of was
a Muggle Children’s story, called Little Red Riding Hood.
eaten Remus and put on his clothes!" Sirius cried, wildly, "And now
he's going to eat us!" James and Peter grabbed Sirius' violently flailing
arms and pulled him out of the room.
yanked the door shut and charmed it closed. Sirius was struggling with all his
might to get free of his friends.
eaten Remus, the beast! He's eaten Remus! I'll kill him!"
grabbed Sirius by the shoulders and shook him hard. “That is Remus!” James
barked. Sirius stopped struggling.
He asked. Peter looked to the floor, painfully understanding.
James sighed, "I had hoped it wasn't true, but this just proves it. Remus
is a werewolf."
Sirius said. Silently, James, lead Sirius back down the corridor and towards Hogwarts
Castle, Peter scurrying behind.
stood leaning against the wall beside the fire in the safety of the Gryffindor
common room. Peter sat cross-legged on the floor, a little shaken, but
reassured by James's confidence.
was slumped in an armchair, staring at the fire.
all made horrible sense. The private talks Remus and Dumbledore had, the
teachers always watching him, the strange disappearances every month. Sirius
didn't want to believe it, but there was no other explanation.
was a monster. A danger to himself and to others.
looked up, James was speaking, "He's had prejudice all his life. That's
why he didn't want us to know. But like I said, Remus is our friend, whatever
shape he's in. He needs us now more than ever. Will you stand by him?"
looked wide-eyed and scared at the thought, but he clutched the carpet firmly
as if to say he wasn't going to desert Remus. "I’m proud to call him my
friend. Seeing him like that only makes me respect him more."
nodded in approval, noting that Peter's stammer had disappeared.
what about you Sirius?" James asked.
considered the question. Could he stand by Remus? Could he forget that his best
friend turned fangs and fur at the full moon? Could he accept that Remus was
different and love him any way? Could he look at Remus again, and not see the
Big Bad Wolf?
deep inside said yes, but his mind said no. Remus was a beast, not a man. He
was wild and brutal and dangerous. It didn't matter what he wanted to be, the
undeniable fact was that he was a wolf. A wild animal. James wouldn’t expect
Sirius to be friends with a wild bear. How was this any different?
didn’t reply. He stared blankly at the fire for a long time. James waited for
an answer, first patiently, but with a growing anxious fear. “Sirius!” James
snapped, “Don’t just sit there! Say something!”
looked up, but he didn’t answer. James’ usual dominating confidence melted
away, to be replaced by fear. “What do you want me to say?” Sirius whispered.
gave a disgusted sigh, and hung his head. “I want you to say that Remus is our friend, and
nothing would ever make you feel differently.” He said, almost pleadingly.
one said anything for a long time, until Sirius suddenly hopped to his feet and
headed towards the Portrait Hole “I’m going out.” He said.
ran towards Sirius, “Please don’t do this!” He wailed, but the portrait swung
closed in his face. Sirius was gone. He had only gone five meters
when an incredible tiredness swept over him. He slumped to the ground, his back
to the wall, and his head in his hands. He took a raged breath, and let a sob
escape his lips.
passed. Sirius couldn’t tell how much, nor did he care. He half expected James
too come out, and talk to him. But James didn’t appear. After a while, Sirius
closed his eyes. And when he opened them, morning had come.
sound of footsteps brought Sirius to his feet. Probably a professor, he’d be in
trouble for being out of bed so early. Sirius headed towards the portrait hole,
when it suddenly swung open, and James and Peter stepped out. James looked at
Sirius, Sirius looked at James. Peter looked down the hall, the footsteps
stopped. “Remus.” Peter breathed.
was bloody and his robes looked like they had been mangled by a wild dog.
Which, Sirius was painfully reminded, they had.
Remus looked at his friends, lost for words. His human mind remembering the
wolfish sight of his friends terrified faces.
alright Remus. We understand, and we still want to be your friend." James
said. Peter nodded.
sighed in relief, his eyes filling with tears. "Thank you. I don't know
what I'd do-"
going to breakfast Peter.” Sirius said as he stalked off in the opposite direction
to the Great Hall. “I might see you later.” Remus gave a ragged sigh, and James
looked towards his feet.
Great Hall’s the other way Sirius.” Peter muttered, but he was already gone.
couldn't even bare to look at Remus. For the day following his encounter with
'the wolf' they avoided each other, which was fairly difficult considering they
had all their classes together and they slept in the same dorm. Remus almost
talked to Sirius once, while in Charms, but Sirius brushed him off. That night,
Sirius decided to sleep in the common room in an armchair in front of the fire.
going on?" a Hufflepuff, called Jasper Brown, asked Peter nervously, as
Sirius purposely knocked into Remus, quills and parchment spilling out of his
arms. "Why are they acting like that?"
sighed, and intoned in his wisest voice "Sirius is afraid of the
Sirius and Remus were forced to share a tray. Sirius only spoke once, when he
asked Remus to pass the clippers, with which he proceeded to vigorously
over-prune his Winter Aconite. At the end of the lesson, he threw the tattered
remains in the compost, his plant now a massacred twig.
through his lessons, he saw the snarling face of the wolf, Remus' face.
Werewolves were not people. It was simple. Remus was not a person, and he never
would be. Yes, you can teach a wild beast things, you can command it, even
respect it. But it is, and always will be, a beast.
and Peter made it clear that while they remained 'impartial', they were not
going to justify Sirius's behaviour, and they did not approve of it.
didn't care what they did. He didn’t much care what any one thought. At lunch,
Sirius sat alone, and growled dismissively when any one approached.
wants to talk to you." James said, coming over. Sirius looked sideways
down the Gryffindor table at Remus.
if he did? What if he wanted to come over here and explain everything, and ask
if you could still be friends? What would you say?"
he doesn't want to do that, does he." Sirius said, by way of an answer
he doesn't want to talk to you, because you won't listen." James cried,
infuriated by Sirius' stubbornness.
Sirius replied, "I won't listen to a beast. Nothing he can say would
change my mind."
it would. Maybe if you could lose your prejudice and listen to your friend
you'd feel differently. But you're too scared to listen." James spat,
"You just want to push the problem away and ignore it. Your friend needs
you, and you sit here and call him a beast."
didn't even flinch.
the beast, Sirius?" James asked, turning to go, "A man in fur, or a
boy who's too stubborn to admit he's afraid?"
moon hung dull, obstructed by clouds, in the early evening sky. It was thinner
now than it had been two nights ago, when the beast had reared its ugly head.
sat hunched over by the lake, tossing stones into the dark water. Splosh! And
they sunk. Simple.
was avoiding James and his accusing words. Avoiding Peter and his simplistic
views. Avoiding Remus, the wolf.
was a crunch behind him, as some one came closer towards him along the bank.
know, I've never seen a full moon." Remus said, standing behind Sirius and
looking at the sky.
you have." Sirius spat, "But I guess you’re always too busy foaming
at the fangs to notice."
sighed, "That's not me. That's a wolf that steals my body, not me."
There was a silence. Sirius screwed up his eyes and blocked the words out.
Remus was the beast.
I was young, before I was bitten, I guess I saw the moon. But that was so long
ago. Every night, I look up at the moon, and try and think what it would look
like if it was full. But I can't. All I see is the fear of what will
felt tears of pity and self-loathing run down his face. Remus was so brave, he
had to see himself turn into a horrible beast, see the destruction and havoc he
wrought, and Sirius couldn't even accept him.
was right, there was a beast. And it wasn't Remus. "The moon isn't that
sighed and sat down beside Sirius. "No, maybe not to you. But, when you
can't have something, it just makes you want it more."
Sirius said, turning to look at his friend. "I'm sorry. I saw the wolf,
and I didn't want it to be you. And when I knew it was, I wanted to block it
out. I couldn't deal with it. I was being childish and I'm sorry."
chuckled, "Was that Sirius Black apologising?"
smiled too, "Don't you go telling everybody about it. Or they’ll all be
picked up a stone and tossed it into the water. For a long time neither of them
spoke. It was so much easier to just forget. But eventually Remus tentatively
broke the silence.
what of the moon?" Remus asked, not daring to ask his real question.
understood, and he replied in his gruff voice, "I'm over the moon."
felt that if he wanted to right now, he could imagine the full moon, without
pain or fear, just the moon. But he didn't want to see it. Some things in life
where just so much sweeter.
smiled, and looked out across the lake at the cloud-covered moon. "Yeah,