don’t wanna close my eyes!
wanna fall asleep!
I miss you babe, and I don’t wanna miss a thing
The voice was
low and humming, the monotonous tones of Professor Binns’ voice constant as the
Goblin Revolution of 1493 continued its rocky development. The quiet scratching
of a quill was the only thing that could be heard in the classroom, and when
Professor Binns turned around the brown-haired boy who owned that particular
quill looked quickly to his left, a slight frown of concern grazing his
normally graceful features.
asked the red-headed girl sitting next to him, even as the quill continued to
copy down name after name. “Are you all right?”
eyes clouded with sleep gazed back at him, and she jumped slightly, a little
disoriented. “Oh, yes …Remus. Goodness, did I fall asleep?”
A merry laugh
escaped the boy’s lips, and his eyes twinkled slightly before answering. “Yes,
you did. For a moment there, I was the only person awake in this class.” He
pointed to the snoring mop of messy black hair and the more subdued but still
very much asleep plump-looking boy by his side. “And if Sirius weren’t too sick
to come to class…” He twitched and dropped his voice conspiratorially -- “And
don’t you believe for a moment he’s really sick,” he added before reassuming
his normal tone of voice. “Then he’d be here snoring as well.”
warmly then, one of those rare smiles that caused James to walk around with a
goofy grin whenever she directed one at him, and shrugged almost imperceptibly.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me,” she tried to excuse herself. “I don’t
think I’ve ever fallen asleep in class before. I must be coming down with
frown returned instantly, and he examined the girl attentively, taking note of
the paleness of her features, in sharp contrast with her fiery red hair. The
quill continued to move, even as his eyes focused on her, and his writing
suffered a bit for it, but it seemed he was accustomed to doing this sort of
thing, because he kept writing the names down with almost no difficulty.
take a nap, like the rest of the class,” the boy said softly. “I’ll lend you my
notes later so you can catch up.”
“Oh, no …I
wouldn’t dream of abandoning you with Professor Binns,” she responded with
smirk, but he could see that her usually bright green eyes were a bit dull.
“Especially not today, when all your friends are … indisposed.” She finished,
with a look at James that betrayed some tenderness, even as she tried to appear
are always indisposed. In fact, I think the only time Sirius got through a
class awake was that time when I made him promise to take notes for me. It’s
all right, really. I’m used to it.”
did take notes last week, when you came down with the flu,” she reasoned.
“You’re sick often enough, Remus, but if you only knew the little angels your
friends become when you’re not here, you wouldn’t push yourself so hard to
return when you’re obviously not well.”
He smiled, and
the smile now held a hint of sadness. “All the more reason to listen to me,
don’t you think? There’s no need to sit through this class, I’ll lend you my
notes later. You do it often enough for me, Lily. We’re even. Now, switch seats
with me and rest a bit with your good-for-nothing boyfriend.”
He was out of
the chair and pushing Lily towards James immediately, and she mouthed “thanks”
as she traded seats with him and placed her head next to James, but he was so
focused on the class now, she didn’t think he saw her.
She would tell
him later. After all, she had time.
into darkness, and dark thoughts assaulted her again, just as they had
assaulted her when she was awake. There was a war going on outside the walls of
Hogwarts, and who was to say if they were prepared for what they were about to
face? Maybe they wouldn’t survive. Maybe she wouldn’t survive.
Was it really
a show of good judgment to tie herself to James when there were so many other
things that seemed more important? Did she really deserve the happiness she
found in his arms when so many people who’d do much more than she were alone
and desperate? Was it really fair?
enveloped her completely, and when she opened her eyes again she was sitting in
a dimly lit room, the only light the tenuous beams of moonlight that filtered
through the closed curtains. The sky outside was clear, and the stars shone
brightly in the sky, blinking dots that turned the black space into a
And then she
noticed the room, the light green of the soft curtains, the darker shade of the
walls, by far the prettiest she’d ever seen, and the wooden crib near the
corner, green sheets curled up in a tiny hand.
feeling came over her as she stared at the tiny hand, and she stood rooted to
the spot as a tiny flame of hope began to burn inside her. Looking around
wildly, she spotted a couple of fluffy teddy bears, and she idly wondered if
she would have bought them. A toy broom rested against the corner, and when she
turned her eyes to the ceiling, certainty hit her so hard she had to grab onto
the chair to keep her balance.
was enchanted, much like the Great Hall at Hogwarts, she supposed, but it
wasn’t enchanted to look like the sky outside. Instead, it was enchanted to
look like a Quidditch pitch, the players moving around as if a game was going
she thought as she walked towards the crib slowly, heart beating wildly. A few
seconds later she stood dumfounded in front of a small boy, not even a year
old, with jet black hair as messy as James’, and a serene expression on his
beautiful, perfect, and he was hers. She couldn’t explain the strange certainty
that had taken hold of her heart, and she didn’t even want to. All she knew was
that …this was her future, and her future looked much brighter than she had
envisioned. Her future had James, and a baby boy in it. A family, her family.
gurgling noise came from the crib, and Lily’s eyes met their equal, a pair of
eyes as green as her own. Filled with tenderness, she scooped the boy up in her
arms, marveling at the feel of him, the soft baby skin, the incoherent mumble,
and the way he clung to her red hair with possessiveness, but without hurting
She’d had so
little time with him, was barely getting used to his weight against her and the
feel of his soft hair against her cheek, when a pair of strong arms surrounded
her from behind and she came face to face with the smirking face of James
muttered disbelievingly, almost as if she couldn’t believe he was here, even
though it made sense, considering the baby boy she held in her arms, and the
thoughts that were running through her head just moments ago.
“Yes, yes …I
know,” he sighed as his lips pressed a soft kiss against her brow. “I’m late. I
swear I couldn’t get away before, and this time it wasn’t my fault. Sirius had
good news to share, so you can imagine the ruckus. Moody wasn’t pleased,” he
finished with a dramatic sigh. “But since I figured you’d want to hear the good
news yourself, they’re all down there …yes, including Remus.”
uncertainly as she held the baby closer. “Eh, but he …”
I mean …bring the baby down, dear. You know they’d all love to see him. But do
try to keep him away from Sirius today. He’s a little more ….er, energetic than
usual.” He winked at her before grabbing a hold of her hand to lead her
The rest of
the house came into view as Lily walked down the mahogany stairs and came to a
brightly illuminated living room, soft-looking armchairs surrounding a plump
sofa, while on the corner a long polished table held a vase of scarlet
geraniums that gave the room a bright note of color.
familiar-looking men stood in the middle of the room, light brown hair with a
tiny glint of grey falling against the smooth and smiling face of one Remus
Lupin, looking tired and a bit haggard, but exuding the same warmth and
companionship Lily had come to associate with him. In the corner near the flowers,
stood a still plump-looking Peter, rosy cheeks and dazzling smile in contrast
with the mischievous glint in his eyes that Lily could swear was a direct
result of the years spent in the company of Sirius and James. And close to the
stairs, staring at Harry like he were a new toy he couldn’t wait to get his
hands on, stood Sirius Black, all long hair and sparkling eyes.
“Lily!” he was
the first to exclaim as he advanced towards her open-armed, waiting for her to
hand over baby over. But she couldn’t let go of him, his tiny hands still
clutched her hair like a lifeline, even as he tried to wave to the three
“Oh, you stop
trying to monopolize his time, Padfoot,” Remus said as he hunched over so he
could come face to face with the baby and then disrupted his serious image by
sticking out his tongue at the boy.
Just as the
baby giggled, Sirius huffed as he threw himself into a chair, staring at Remus
with something akin to annoyance. “Yes, yes, whatever Mr.
I-lose-my-dignity-every-time-I step-into-this-house,” he said mockingly.
being a baby and tell Lily your big news, Padfoot,” James urged as he plopped
down besides Sirius, only to look behind and stare at Peter. “Are you trying to
grow roots or what, mate? Sit down!”
Peter walked to the armchair in the corner as he muttered something about the
innocent one always ending up in the middle of everything. But he was smiling,
and Lily could clearly see he was only joking.
the big news?” she asked.
light up and he sat down straight before proclaiming. “You’re looking at the
new Beater for the Falmouth Falcons!”
“Oh,” she said
as she smiled brightly. “That’s …great news, Sirius!”
“Yes, it is,”
Remus proclaimed from his position, still amusing Harry with funny faces.
“Especially for Peter and I, as we won’t have to put up with him complaining
he’s bored every …eh, what is it Peter?”
five seconds, last time we checked.”
true!” Sirius had to respond, for argument’s sake, as James tried to contain
his laughter and Peter nodded at Lily that it was.
it. Sirius could be many things, a great friend among them, and extremely
annoying at times was definitively on the list. And as he tried to argue and
his friends continued with their teasing remarks, Lily smiled. This future …it
was perfect. Everything she’d ever wanted.
And, it was
only the start.
piercing scream right in her ear brought her out of her dream state in a hurry
as James jumped in the chair, glasses askew and looked wildly around.
over,” Remus announced with a smile as he finished gathering his things. “Are
you feeling better, Lily?” he asked, noticing the subtle change in her eyes.
responded, valiantly trying to grasp the last remains of her dream that were
slowly fading away. “I had a pleasant dream.”
“See, I told
you,” he said as they headed for the door. “And James, would you please wake up
Peter? You know he doesn’t wake up that easily, and it’s terribly dreadful of
you to leave him there.”
James stuck his tongue out at Remus as he went to wake up their slumbering
friend, and Remus took the chance to ask again. “You sure you’re all right?”
said smiling softly at him. The upcoming war and the dark days that would
indeed come for them the moment they got out of school were still an unshakable
part of her future. But in between those bright days, there was hope, and joy,
and laughter. And maybe this tale would have a happy ending after all, even if
it was not a fairy tale.
here it is …my first shot at L/J. Though I must admit I’m liking this young
Remus thing. (Anne: Because young Remus is sure not to have a mustache!)
*giggles* He ended up having a larger role than he was supposed to have, but
you know me …I couldn’t help it. This one is for Carissa…now, please be nice
and go write. :p (Anne: Yes, Carissa needs to write!)