A.N. The ‘Will you look into the mirror’ dialogue is taken from
Galadriel and Frodo in Fellowship
of the Ring. The ‘Be alone’ part is also
from Galadriel and Frodo.
I know, I know! This most likely won’t happen but I got the idea from Gryffinjack’s
drawing: Return of
the Je—I mean Padfoot. Truly splendid
artwork… And thanks to my Beta-reader Aurelie!
roamed the hallowed halls of Hogwarts.
He had no
pleasure in them now. Not the fixation of being out when he wasn’t supposed
to… Nor the joy of the thought of Ron’s excited questions upon his return. In
fact he hadn’t even brought the invisibility cloak.
his freezing hands in his pockets and with a hardy scowl continued on his way.
if he was caught? What more did he have to lose?
a lot,’ said a
voice in his head.
and leave me alone,” he said aloud.
Nigullus’s stupid words from the past year floated into his mind:
sign of madness: talking to your own head.’
“I am not
mad,” said Harry. “I can talk to my head all I want. I’m not mad. I’m not
mad. I’m not mad. I’M NOT MAD!”
into a run not caring where he was going. He was not mad!
turned a corner. He spotted a staircase and dashed up it. As he passed a
ghost a new thought crept into his mind, I need a place to mourn! To be
alone! Just to think!
had to stop dead.
mahogany door faced him. On it were words of another language that he did not
at the large brass handle.
was a cold stone floor. Nothing else was in sight except a big, glass mirror.
walked towards it squinting. He had seen this mirror before.
the top mysterious writing spelt: Erised stra ehru oyt ube cafru oyt on
the mirror of Erised.
looked at the poor, suffering boy.
How he longed to leave his office which had devises of
seeing Harry Potter and go to him.
was a test that only Harry would take. It was the test that everyone took – in
his or her own time. Now Harry Potter’s had come. How foolish for Dumbledore
to have thought that Harry had already taken this test. How incredibly
the 16-year-old’s eyes widen and face contract as he looked into the long
you look into the mirror?’
will I see?
the wisest cannot tell. For the mirror shows many things.’
In this way Harry battled with himself. He didn’t think he could stand
seeing his family’s happy faces again when he himself felt so unhappy.
finally peaked up at it expecting to see his mother’s dark red hair or his
father’s bespeckled eyes but instead he saw the form of a large black dog that
had big round, kind eyes that were full of concern. Harry was seeing Sirius.
His own eyes widened and his face contorted…
incredible how much this boy had suffered and even now couldn’t manage to shed
a single tear.
Dumbledore managed to get through this sight without going to Harry it would be
repeated to himself that this was Harry’s test and must take it alone…
black dog that was Harry’s godfather blinked sadly back at him just out of
reach… just out of reach!
Harry could not stand it. The loss of Sirius all jumbled with the horrible
events of his life threatened to overwhelm him.
tried to stop them but they came pouring out of his soul.
to his knees and lamented with the tears spilling out of his eyes as he lost
the battle for self-control.
foggy vision he saw Padfoot’s warm eyes again. A paw extended to reach for him
but the clear mystical glass forever separated them.
banged himself against the mirror, desperate to fall through…
stayed at the entrance to the Room of Requirement, not wanting to invade on
surprised that the room had been able to distinguish Harry’s thoughts of being
alone as wanting Sirius. Even he didn’t quite understand, and the room had
supplied the best possible way for Sirius to come back.
watched Harry slump to the floor in anguish.
“Why do I
have to go on alone?” Harry cried to the silent room. “I can’t defeat Him!
it was still too early to let Harry know that which he already knew in his
heart: He had been marked as Voldemort’s equal. To be marked as the Dark Lords
equal meant to be alone.
Potter would never be deserted by his friends – no matter how much he thought