Summary: In the wake of the disaster at Azkaban, the Ministry
investigates
Hogwarts, Hermione and Ron investigate each other, and Harry
investigates
himself while Ginny (sigh) waits. The Order of the Phoenix rises
unwelcome
from the ashes. Third story in a series of four.
Author’s note: Is it possible, after all this time, that anyone is
still
itching to know what happens after “The Innocents”? I know I
was.
Well, itch no longer. This is the third story in a series set in
Harry’s
fifth year- it follows “Drastic Measures” and
“The Innocents”, in that order. Special thanks
go to Mrs Paleologus for helping this story rise from the ashes of
its
trashy first draft, and to Elanor Gamgee for her very encouraging
beta-reading.
Enjoy!
***
"You look um, nice, Hermione," Harry said uneasily, as Hermione
joined
him on the busy landing where two stairways met under the great wall
of
portraits of past Headmasters. They had arranged to meet Ron in the
library,
to begin revising for O.W.L.s, at Hermione’s insistence. “You’ll
never
have time when Quidditch begins, Harry,” she had said. “We mustn’t
leave
it a minute longer.”
Harry had seen her coming down the opposite staircase, fidgeting
with
her hair. At first he had not even recognized her in the crowd of
students.
Harry couldn’t put his finger on it. She looked somehow different.
"Fetching"
was the word Harry thought of but didn’t dare say. It was the word
the
saleswoman used to describe expensive vases on the shopping channel
that
Aunt Petunia would watch religiously. "Fetching," she would repeat
to
herself softly. It usually meant there was going to be an argument
with
Uncle Vernon about buying the vase. He blinked the memory away.
Hermione's face reddened guiltily at Harry’s words, but she
recovered
and was all business.
"Really? Do you think so?" she said, with feigned nonchalance. Her
eyes
shone.
Harry said the only thing he could think of.
"Are you all right? Is there something wrong?" He kept thinking
about
Aunt Petunia and her fetching vases.
"Wrong?" Hermione sounded annoyed. "No, of course not."
Harry shrugged and started down the rest of the stairs.
Hermione dashed after him and caught his arm, nearly knocking him
off
balance. A Slytherin third-year coming down the stairs narrowly
avoided
crashing into them. He tsked his annoyance loudly.
"Do I look terrible?" Hermione said. She had changed colour.
"No," Harry said, smiling at her sudden frantic change. It reminded
him
of his Aunt Petunia when the number of the vases on the shopping
channel
was dwindling. "I just said you looked nice."
"Oh," Hermione breathed. "Thanks. It’s… just a bit of makeup that
Ginny
lent me, and, er, this ribbon…"
She vaguely indicated a thin twinkling stripe winding its way
through
her bushy hair with a wave. It changed colours like shifting winds.
Right
now it was blinking subtly at him - trying to get his attention.
Harry started. It was his turn to flush. He recognized the ribbon.
Ginny
had worn it once, one morning a couple of weeks before, a morning
that
Harry had been keeping out of his mind. A morning when some things
were
done and said that, in the cold light of what had happened after,
seemed
silly and regrettable to Harry. He tried to ignore the blinking
hair-band.
"Oh, right," Harry said, and when he felt the weight of Hermione's
expectant
gaze, he knew he had to explain himself. "I knew I’d seen it
somewhere
before. Anyway, let's go, then."
And he started down the rest of the stairway, the less said about
the
ribbon the better.
Harry left Hermione on the steps. Only when he got to the next
landing
did he notice she wasn't with him. He turned to face her, repeating
"Is
something wrong?"
Hermione chewed her lip. Her hair-ribbon went a deep plum colour.
"Nnnooo…
" she began.
"Right then," said Harry and mimed proceeding. She didn't move.
"Hermio-"
"Not wrong, exactly," Hermione interrupted uncertainly.
Harry stomped back up the steps and grabbed the right sleeve of
Hermione’s
robe, steering her down a side corridor. He hoped Hermione could see
his
exasperation.
"What are you doing?" Hermione hissed, her eyes bugging out. Her
hair
band had turned an acid green.
"Does this have anything to do with-" Harry dropped his voice to a
whisper.
"-Ron?"
Hermione blushed deeply, rendering quite superfluous the colour she
had
added to her cheeks.
"Harry, I-" she whispered urgently and then straightened up. “Oh,
blast,
this is stupid!" she said in her regular fussy voice. "I’m going
back
to the Tower-"
"Are you trying to get Ron’s attention?"
Harry smiled slightly at the shocked reaction on Hermione's face.
"How-" she stammered. Her hair band became the same mousy colour as
her
hair and he could no longer see it.
"Because you’ve got it already."
"When will he say so? I just can’t tell. I’m pretty sure he likes
me.
He-" Hermione sighed. "The only time he lets on is when his life’s
in
danger. Harry, it’s ridiculous. He’s spoiling my concentration."
Harry grinned. "He’s mad about you. Trust me, I know," he
added
with pointed weariness. Few lights-out had gone by recently without
Ron
muttering about how he would broach the subject with Hermione.
"D'you
think she actually likes me, Harry? I mean, I know she
said
she does, but that was when she was about to die, wasn't it? I'm
sure
people say all sorts of things under duress..." and so forth.
Hermione bit her lip. "Don’t laugh at me, Harry. I was going to, in
the
library…" she whispered conspiratorially. "I thought I’d tell him to
go
get a book from the stacks, then follow him there-"
"Okay, enough, I’ve got the idea," Harry said, waving his hands.
"But
the library?"
"Well, there's not much privacy these days, is there? It was
Ginny’s
idea. I was about to make a fool of myself," Hermione declared.
"Thanks
for talking me out of it," she said briskly and started to turn.
"No," Harry said, grinning. "I think that’s a terrific idea."
Hermione stood, torn, ready to go march back to Gryffindor Tower
but
clearly wanting to believe Harry too.
"Don’t make me go through with it, Harry," she pleaded.
"Never dream of it. Ron will be delighted," Harry said, "when I
tell
him."
Harry greatly enjoyed the expression on Hermione’s face.
"You would not!" she hissed.
Harry stayed silent.
"All right," Hermione began again. "Here’s a deal. You have to
swear…"
"Anything," Harry said, smiling.
"You’ll do the same for Ginny."
Harry was stunned, as if Hermione had just upended his
dinner-plate.
"Why-" he began, then stopped.
"I know about you two," Hermione said, her face serious. “Ginny’s
been
miserable. You haven’t spoken to her.”
"Yes, I ha-" Harry stopped. He would not lie. "Why did she tell
you-"
"You really should speak to her. She's heartbroken."
"Hermione, I- I'm just not sure about Ginny..." Harry stammered
out.
"Then you owe it to her to tell her," Hermione said, her hands on
her
hips. "Are you going to let her suffer until you make up your mind?"
There was no longer anything remotely fetching about Hermione’s
expression.
"What can I tell her?" Harry said, pleading.
"Whatever you like," Hermione said, her voice suddenly quite nasty.
She
tore the ribbon out of her hair, which poofed out messily. "I'm
going
to wash my ridiculous face. I'll catch you two up in ten minutes."
Hermione jogged back up the stairs. Harry followed her a little
ways,
out to the stairway, then stopped, at a loss.
“Oi!” came the voice of a younger student, who knocked into Harry’s
elbow
as he passed.
***
The revision session was not going well. Hermione had returned just
a
couple of minutes later, but nobody seemed inclined to concentrate.
Ron,
who had already protested that this study session was a waste of a
fine
day, was in a restless mood, suggesting every few minutes that they
could
study out by the lake. Hermione acted like herself (“No, Ron, you
don’t
need the distraction.”), but Harry knew better. She, too, was
distracted.
Every few minutes, flipping through her notes, she would heave an
exasperated
sigh.
"This isn't the right one at all," Hermione said, heaving the thick
weight
of a massive open book, which closed with a dusty "phlump". Hermione
sat
still a moment. "Ron, would you go get-"
Harry looked up. Would she really-
"Never mind," she said finally. "I can find it myself." She lifted
the
heavy tome and lugged it over to the shelves under her arm. Harry
shook
his head.
"What d'you suppose is eating her?" Ron asked in a whisper, leaning
over
the study table. Hermione had disappeared into the stacks.
"No idea," Harry said, poker-faced.
There was a sly smile on Ron's face. He dropped his whisper even
lower.
"Y'know, sometimes I think I'd like to follow her into the shelves.
Surprise
her, you know? Wonder if she'd slap me."
"Probably," Harry muttered, shrugging.
"You don't think I would, do you?" Ron seemed to Harry like a puppy
wanting
to play-fight.
This was becoming interesting. For some reason, Harry thought of
some
game Dudley used to play, where he would take two toy electric cars,
and
set them up so that they would smash into each other until the doors
came
off. Harry had always wished Dudley would let him play.
Harry put down his quill and took a moment to look thoughtful. "No,
you're
far too chicken," Harry said. "Definitely."
Ron looked away, then crossed his arms, then uncrossed them. "Bet I
could.
I bet I could."
"I dare you," Harry said.
Ron went quite red. "All right," he said, and stood up.
"For England," Harry said. He buried his face in his book as Ron
walked
away.
"Oh! What are you doing here?" Hermione whispered from behind two
shelves
of books and scrolls piled high.
"Erm... " came a voice that positively croaked. "Just wondering if
you
needed help finding- ermph!" A short
but weighty silence. "Blimey!" came the same voice, at full volume
this
time and sounding very impressed.
Harry saw Madam Pince, across the way, look up from her table, a
cross
look flashing on her face, but she went back to her work.
"Blast!" came a sharp whisper. It was Hermione this time. "I can't
believe
I -- I'm a prefect-!"
Harry saw Hermione shoot out from between the rows of shelves
toward
the library door, as if she were suddenly taken ill.
"No running!" Madam Pince called crankily from her table. She shook
her
head. Hermione was gone. Ron emerged from between the shelves. He
walked
back to the study table in a daze and sat down across from Harry,
where
Hermione had been sitting.
"You'd better bring her that," Harry said.
Ron looked up, his face stuck in an absent grin. "Huh?"
"You'd better take that when you go," Harry enunciated, indicating
the
quill and pile of parchment sheets at Hermione's place. "Bring them
back
to her. She'll be missing them later."
"Riiiight!" Ron said, catching on. He gathered up the sheets and
stuffed
them sloppily into Hermione's bag, which he hoisted onto his
shoulder.
"Told you I could do it," Ron said with a wink. He left the library
at
a trot.
***
There was no way Harry was going to continue studying without his
friends.
This was a free period, a rare enough thing, and Harry decided to go
out
for the hour remaining before the call for supper, perhaps to pay a
call
on Hagrid. Ron had had a point about the weather. The October sun
was
making a last stab at acting in a summery manner, and the grounds
looked
inviting as Harry walked out the main entrance.
On his way, Harry made a detour toward the Quidditch pitch. Harry
had
taken to watching the second- and third- years play their pickup
games
during free periods. Trials for the new season would begin in only a
few
days, and Katie Bell, the new captain of the Gryffindor side, had
advised
her teammates to keep an eye out for interesting prospects to fill
their
vacancies. This time, there was nobody playing, but he heard a voice
as
he began to move away in the direction of Hagrid's hut.
"-would be perfect- two against two. Call him!"
"Hey Harry!" came another voice.
There were three students running over toward Harry. Derek
Hawthorne
the Hufflepuff Keeper, Sarah Jackson the Ravenclaw Keeper, and...
Cho
Chang.
"You want to join us?" Derek said. "We've got an odd number."
"It'll be great," Sarah said. "The Keepers versus the Seekers, see
who's
more useless with a Quaffle in their hands."
"Uh. sure," Harry said quietly. Cho was smiling.
"Great!" Sarah said. "Get your broom- we'll beat off anyone else
who
tries to use the pitch."
Harry was back ten minutes later, on his Firebolt. The others were
in
the air already, warming up with the Quaffle. Harry swooped in
between
Sarah and Cho and intercepted the ball. "Smooth!" Derek called out.
What followed was the best half-hour Harry had had in weeks. He and
Cho
were teamed up together against the two Keepers. It was a dramatic
little
match- Derek and Sarah had it all over the two Seekers in passing,
but
when Harry or Cho got a hold of the ball they could fly rings around
the
Keepers. Harry was in a state of bliss, his worries left far below.
He
had not played Quidditch for over a year. They traded goals,
ratcheting
up a score that stayed close to even for the duration of the match.
When the call came from the castle to go in for supper, the Keepers
were
ahead by two goals, and Harry and Cho were forced to concede the
match.
"Bloody hell!" Derek said. "Just as it was getting interesting!"
The four touched the ground a little ways from the castle. "That
was
terrific," Cho said to Harry as the four walked into the Entrance
Hall.
"I needed that."
"Yeah," Harry said, completely understanding what she meant.
"Why don't you guys join us at pudding, after supper?" Sarah said.
"If
you're not too good to be seen at the Ravenclaw table."
"Yeah, I'll swallow my pride," Derek said, winking at Sarah. "You
going
to come, Harry?"
Harry was going to say no, but then he thought of Ron and Hermione.
He
had a feeling they would not be the best company this evening.
"Sure!" Harry said. "See you later." He ran up to his dormitory to
change.
***
Harry had guessed right about Ron and Hermione. Ron was in an
unnaturally
chipper mood. Hermione, across the table from the two of them,
seemed
to giggle almost every time she was spoken to. "What'd you do this
afternoon?"
Ron asked Harry as he chewed his roast beef.
"That's disgusting, Ron," Hermione said. "Swallow first, can't
you?"
"Yes, Mum," Ron drawled. He gulped, and a lump travelled down his
neck.
Hermione frowned. "That's dangerous. Don't expect me to lift a
finger
if you start choking. Harry, he's baiting me on purpose. Stop
him."
"Stop it, Ron," Harry said dryly. Hermione gave Ron a superior look
which
caused Ron to snicker and Hermione to giggle again.
Ron turned back to Harry. "So, what'd you do this afternoon,
Harry?"
"Quidditch. I ran into some people playing. How about you?"
"Not much," Ron said seriously.
Hermione grinned. Harry wondered if she had any idea what she
looked
like. Dean Thomas, sitting next to her, looked over at her
occasionally,
as if wondering if she was running a temperature. "We had a bit of a
walk
by the lake," she said. Harry smiled. It looked like Ron had won the
day
after all.
"That's good, then," Harry said. He stood up suddenly. "I'll see
you
later."
"Where are you going?" Ron asked. Harry had noticed Ginny standing
up
from her place among the fourth-years. She was walking over toward
Hermione.
Hermione's face had gone serious, and she was eyeing Harry
suspiciously.
"Er, they invited me to join them at pudding. The people I was
playing
Quidditch with. I'll see you later."
Harry retreated from the Gryffindor table. From time to time he had
caught
Ginny looking at him from her place a few seats away, which caused a
painful
pang. The morning of their disastrous detour to Azkaban, Ginny had
surprised
Harry with a rather astonishing kiss. In that moment he had found it
very
natural to kiss her back. But the rest of that day was so horrible,
Harry
could hardly picture that moment, and when he did, he cringed with
shame.
He had avoided Ginny whenever possible, and had assumed, as a
fifteen-year
old boy might, that his behaviour would not be noticed or have an
effect
on anybody. Meanwhile, having Ginny nearby made him feel horrible
and
confused.
There was a shuffle as students rose from their places and went to
speak
with friends elsewhere in the Hall. It was a privilege granted at
pudding
time to pay calls on friends from other houses or years, scrambling
the
strict and regimented seating order of the houses for a few minutes
each
evening. Harry got a hero's welcome from his new friends at the
Ravenclaw
table. "Harry!" Sarah Jackson called out. Cho moved aside and made a
place
between herself and Sarah for Harry to sit. Derek was already there,
sitting
on the other side of Sarah. He waved with one great hand. Harry
nervously
took the place offered.
The four Quidditch players replayed their match in word and gesture
over
pudding at the Ravenclaw table, every swoop and pass examined
carefully.
The four compared notes on the up-and-coming students they expected
to
see at trials the following week, as every team had vacancies to
fill.
Harry was unexpectedly having a grand time, talking about the one
thing
he knew best. Only occasionally did it hit him that he was talking
to
Cho, to whom he had never had the nerve to speak two coherent
sentences
before. He realized that it was certainly much easier to speak to
Cho
the Ravenclaw Seeker than to Cho the pretty girl whom he had liked
to
look at from halfway across the Great Hall.
Harry looked toward the head table for a moment and noticed
something
very strange. Nobody was sitting in Dumbledore's place. Dumbledore
had
arrived at dinner late, and was seated a little ways behind, a blank
expression
on his face. Beside him were three wizards whom Harry did not
recognize,
each dressed in official-looking robes. He craned his head a little
to
get a better look.
"Oh!" Harry said.
"What?" Cho said.
"Nothing, I- that's Percy Weasley, isn't it?" Harry said,
indicating
the row of wizards.
"It is!" Sarah agreed. "What's he doing here?" she said, a trace of
distaste
in her voice.
Percy Weasley stood up, and walked over to the head table, taking a
place
just behind Dumbledore's usual place. He was nervously fingering a
sheet
of parchment. "Er..." he intoned, adopting a supercilious smile.
"Excuse me, everybody," Percy went on, and the Great Hall fell
silent.
"Ah, wonderful to see you all again, really much sooner than I
expected
to be back here, quite a pleasure."
These words were greeted with looks of confusion and muttering from
the
assembly. Harry turned his head and spied Ron shrugging his
shoulders
as the Gryffindors surrounding him looked at him quizzically.
"I'm here on behalf of the Minister, who has asked us to do some,
ah,
work here with the Hogwarts faculty. Over the next few days, my
colleagues,
Mr Ekers and Mr Throng, and I will be visiting some of you
personally,
to ask some questions. I hope you'll be able to give us all your
assistance,
as we straighten out some problems, here at the school. Er, your
Headmaster
has a brief statement to make as well."
Since when did Dumbledore need Percy Weasley to introduce him,
Harry
thought. He had a bad feeling about what was coming next.
Dumbledore stood up, and Percy handed him the sheet of parchment.
Dumbledore
pointedly ignored the contents of the sheet and folded it in four as
he
stepped forward. Harry held his breath.
"Mr Weasley is much too modest," Dumbledore said, more quietly than
usual.
"He is about some very important business. The Minister has asked me
to
resign as Headmaster of the school, pending investigation into
certain
alleged wrongdoings on my part."
There was a collective gasp. This was clearly news even to the
other
teachers. The Ministry wizards' faces darkened- this was clearly not
the
statement they had been expecting.
"I have refused his request. So he has requested rather more
forcefully
that I take a temporary leave of absence. I have agreed to this. The
three
gentlemen sitting here behind me will be taking on my administrative
duties
during their investigation. I second Mr Weasley in encouraging you
to
help them learn the full truth in their investigations." Dumbledore
began
to turn, then, as if something had occurred to him, he faced the
students
once more. "Oh, the Minister did also ask me to take some time away
from
Hogwarts," Dumbledore added. "I have advised him that this much I
will
not do. I am to remain in the staff quarters, but I will stay at the
school,
to help in any capacity I am permitted to. Enjoy your pudding. The
strawberries
are exquisite."
The three wizards seated behind Dumbledore wore astonished
expressions
as Dumbledore took his seat. The oldest of the three was gritting
his
teeth in suppressed rage. Percy looked abashed.
"What was that all about?" Sarah said in astonishment.
"Don't know," Cho said. "Do you have any idea, Harry?"
"Something to do with whatever that was that happened a few weeks
ago,
I expect," he muttered. It was one of the school's open secrets that
only
four students were not accounted for the day all students were
herded
into the Great Hall while seven mysterious bodies were collected
from
the grounds by the lake and taken away. Draco Malfoy had not failed
to
name them all whenever he felt the occasion had presented itself.
Cho
simply nodded, and Harry was relieved that she chose not to pursue
the
matter.
Sarah was not so discreet. "You ought to know something about that,
shouldn't
you, Harry?"
Harry adopted his blankest face. "No. Why?" he said.
"Hush, Sarah," Cho said. "Don't believe every bit of nonsense you
hear."
Harry thought to himself that he could kiss her right then. Ha,
that
wasn't news, he mused.
"What are you smiling about?" Sarah said.
"I wasn't," Harry said, looking perfectly serious.
***
Harry climbed through the portrait hole, and scanned the common
room.
Ron and Hermione were sitting across from each other over a chess
board.
Harry started when he saw that Ginny was standing with them. There
was
no escaping, though: Hermione had already caught his eye.
"Over here, Harry," she called out.
The chess game had obviously been abandoned for the moment, as all
the
pieces were sitting down in their squares with bored expressions.
Ginny
was clutching a sheet of parchment.
"Nice of you to join us," Hermione said, a little too pointedly for
Harry's
comfort.
"Yeah, Harry," Ron said, cheerfully. "Sarah Jackson and Cho Chang?
Must
have been tough to tear yourself away."
Harry caught a flash of utter mortification crossing Hermione's
features.
Harry's own face felt hot. Ginny's face remained a blank.
"Ron!" Hermione hissed. "That's hardly nice."
"Sorry," Ron said, looking suddenly sheepish.
Harry wondered what was going through the minds of the three others
as
he took a seat, feeling about as awkward as he ever had. "So what
d'you
think that was all about? With Dumbledore?" he said, changing the
subject.
"It's awful," Hermione said. "How can they get rid of Dumbledore?
Are
they still that blinkered, after Azkaban?"
"I thought Percy loved Dumbledore," Harry said.
Ron shrugged. "Percy loves whoever he's working for. Dad owled me a
couple
of days ago. Said he'd been 'attached' to Fudge's office. Now he's
higher-ranking
than Dad, even. Never said anything about him coming to the
school."
"What are we going to do now?" Harry said. "They're certain to come
after
us."
"We were just talking about that," Ginny said. She extended her arm
to
Harry, holding out the sheet of parchment, which seemed to have been
folded
about a hundred times and was covered in watery red stains.
"We all got one," Hermione said.
Harry took the proffered paper.
When they come for you, just tell the truth. - D.
"Why didn't I get one?" Harry said.
"Didn't stay around for your pudding, did you?" Ron said. "It was
hidden
inside a strawberry. Here's yours," he added, holding out another
sheet,
which was almost torn in two. "Sorry. Neville bit into it."
Harry's message was different. There was only one word written on
it.
Marzipan.
"He's a nutter. What's that about?" Ron said.
"I know," Harry said. "It's a password. For emergencies."
***
Somewhere between fourth and fifth year, Herbology class had taken
a
much more sinister turn. For the last three classes they had been
studying
a plant called the Bloodweed, a seven-foot tall carnivorous vine.
The
Bloodweed was not nearly as bad, however, as the Songolo Ape-Wasp
which
it fed on. Hagrid brought in a cageful of these angry flying beasts
for
the Bloodweed's daily care and feeding, to be administered by the
increasingly
nervous students.
"I hope these things are really bloody useful," Ron griped as he
held
on to the panicking ape-wasp's harness and approached the Bloodweed
slowly
and cautiously.
"Oh yes, they've got loads of medicinal properties!" Neville
Longbottom
chipped in. He had been first in Herbology all year, outperforming
even
Hermione, and it was the one place he always seemed to be on sure
footing.
"The enormous curative potential-"
"Thanks, Neville. I feel better now," Ron said with finality.
"Stun the poor bastard, won't you?" Seamus said. "I don't want to
hear
that scream again when it's eaten."
Harry took out his wand to do exactly this, when a voice came from
the
greenhouse doorway. "Excuse me!" It was Percy Weasley.
Professor Sprout tied off an ape-wasp's lead to a post, where it
remained,
buzzing and struggling. "Can I help you?"
"Can I borrow Harry Potter for a bit? Sorry to bother you.
Governing
Committee business," Percy said with a tentative, ingratiating
smile.
There were few feelings Harry had grown to hate more than the one
he
got when a whole roomful of people suddenly turned to look at him.
That
is exactly what happened at that moment. Professor Sprout looked
mildly
put out but she nodded. Harry went over to the door, where Percy was
waiting
with his Ministry-issue smile.
"How're you doing, Harry?" Percy asked jauntily as they exited onto
the
grounds before the castle. "How's the year going?"
"Fine," Harry said noncommitally.
"I've been doing fantastically myself," Percy said, not that Harry
had
asked. "Busy, of course. It was a shame about the whole Crouch
affair,
of course. But I've been getting on! I was moved over to the
Minister's
office, with a brief for Educational Affairs- quite a promotion,
really.
These are exciting times in magical education. We're working on a
sweeping
reform package. Utterly revolutionary," Percy declared.
Harry blinked. The resurrection of Voldemort was such an
ever-present
reality at Hogwarts, that it was easy to forget that much of the
wizarding
world, not least the Ministry, continued to exist without
acknowledging
the fact. It seemed incredible that the Ministry's first priority
was
"educational reform".
"What's this committee for?" Harry asked, almost fearing the
answer.
Percy's smile stayed fixed in place. "As I'm sure you know, Harry,"
he
said indulgently, "there have been some curious things going on at
this
school lately. Mr Ekers thought it was worth a looking-into."
They were inside the castle now, walking along a corridor toward a
block
of classrooms. Harry felt anger rising. "Are you trying to get
Dumbledore
sacked?" he said, patience gone.
The point-blank question seemed to strike Percy's smile like a dart
and
cause it to deflate. "Don't be absurd, Harry," Percy said, his voice
now
colder. "Dumbledore has nothing to worry about. No decision will be
made
in haste."
"That's the problem, isn't it?" Harry said, coming to a stop. Percy
blinked
at him. "You do know Voldemort's back, don't you? Your Mum and Dad
did
tell you that, didn't they?"
Harry saw something he had never seen in Percy's face. He was
angry.
Not annoyed, not pompous, not superior- angry.
"I rather think," Percy said, "that I am better-placed to know
about
this sort of thing!"
Harry was stunned. Was Percy listening to himself? He stayed silent
the
rest of the way.
The committee had chosen to conduct their inquiries in a classroom
not
far from the entrance to the staff's quarters, the better, Harry
guessed,
to keep an eye on the comings and goings of the staff, whose
obedience
to their dictates was likely to be unenthusiastic at best. An old
wizard
stood in the doorway waiting for Percy and Harry. His face was
deeply
lined, with a few thick, bristly white hairs jutting straight out of
his
jaw by way of a beard. It was Mr Ekers, who had been present but
silent
at supper the evening before.
"Good day, Mr Potter," Mr Ekers said in a gruff, croaking voice.
"Thank
you for joining us." Harry had never been thanked less warmly in his
life.
Mr Ekers ushered him to a student's desk in the front row, while he
and
Percy moved up to join the third wizard, Throng, at the head
table.
"Mr Potter," Ekers began, "we have some questions about the events
of
September nineteenth. We assume you will be direct and truthful with
us.
You know that there are means to compel forthrightness if you choose
not
to be."
Harry blinked. "You're an educational reform
committee?"
Ekers actually appeared to smile. "Well," he croaked, "things will
be
changing around this school, that's reasonably certain."
"Erm..." Percy interrupted. "I'm sure I can vouch for Mr Potter,
sir,"
he said. "I am confident he'll be straight with us. Won't you,
Harry."
Harry nodded.
"All right then, then, the beam, please," Ekers said.
The third committee member, Throng, stood up. He was young, older
than
Percy of course, but probably in his thirties. Harry jumped back in
his
seat- with a sudden movement, Throng had pulled a wand from his deep
purple
robe and directed it straight at Harry. A beam of intense yellowish
light
blinded his right eye. Yet, it was as if... the light was coming
from
his eye.
"What's that!" Harry exclaimed. He could not raise his hands from
his
sides. He was paralysed. He heard Percy mutter "I'm sure that's not
strictly
necessary, sir. This boy has visited my family's house."
Out of his remaining eye, Harry could tell that Ekers had ignored
Percy's
remark.
"Er... let's get started then, shall we?" Percy said, unease in his
voice.
"I wonder if you could take us through that morning, Harry. Start at
the
beginning."
***
Harry was in a fury when he left the committee room, his right eye
slowly
readjusting to the darkness of the corridor. The strange yellow beam
had
left a violated, humiliating feeling, as if he had had the story
sucked
out of him by a gang of hoover-wielding thugs. Harry found Ron and
Hermione
in the Great Hall. Lunch was almost over, but his friends had
mercifully
saved him a serving, which Ron pushed toward him as Harry sat down
at
his place.
"You're just out now?" Hermione said. "That took ages!"
"It was stupid," Harry said, still fuming. "They asked the same
questions
over and over. The whole time they kept this yellow light in my
eye-"
There was a guttural laugh behind Harry. He turned and saw Moody
standing
behind him. "Saw you coming in. Congratulations, laddie!" he said
with
a wicked smile, patting Harry's shoulder. "That means they think
you've
gone mad. The yellow beam lets 'em see your brains. See if you're
deluded
and cooking it up."
"But I told them the truth!" Harry protested. The ordeal had been
frustrating,
and embarrassing to boot- he had to fight hard not to blurt out
everything
he had done with Ginny that morning.
"Of course you did," Moody said, whispering now. Some of the
Gryffindors
were leaning in, less than subtly, to try to hear the conversation.
"You
know the reputation you've got with the Ministry now. Almost as bad
as
mine. Claiming you're chasing You-Know-Who around graveyards, trying
to
get people riled up."
Hermione looked shocked at Moody's words, but Harry smiled. After
the
grilling he took from the committee, it was good to hear at least
one
person out there who took him seriously.
"Did they call you?" Harry asked Moody.
Moody nodded. "For this afternoon. Expect I'll be shown the door
directly,"
Moody said, his expression sardonic. He moved on, ambling slowly
back
toward his place at the Slytherin table.
***
"Harry! Come over here!" Fred called out across the common room.
Harry
lifted his head from the Transfiguration text he was alternately
reading
and pretending to read. In recent days, he had taken to studying on
his
own, while Ron and Hermione worked together in the library. It was a
poor
substitute for dating, perhaps, but it was the best they could do in
the
circumstances, and Harry respected that. As a matter of fact, it was
fine
with him, because much as he wished them well, he still found it all
a
bit... weird.
Fred and George were crouched over a table in a corner, examining
something
closely. Harry walked over and saw that there was a sheet of
parchment,
with a quill lying on it.
"You show him," George said excitedly.
"Look at this," Fred said. "We've just worked out something
positively
wicked. Do you see this quill?" Harry nodded. "Do you know whose it
is?"
"No, of course not-"
"Neither did we. We found it on the floor. But watch this," Fred
added.
George muttered something very very quietly, and the quill lifted
itself
to standing, point resting on the parchment. Suddenly it lifted
itself
and made a period.
Harry smirked. "I've seen Levitation before."
George held up a finger. The quill then moved slightly to the left,
and
began to form an elegant small "e". George smiled. The pen was
writing
backwards. "n", "o" - "One?" Harry thought. Then an "i" and an "m"
followed.
"Know whose it is now?" Fred said, smiling. Harry nodded. The quill
ended
the word with a neat flourish on the capital letter H. "Hermione".
The
quill rose up again, and the word "love" appeared. Harry blushed a
little.
He realised this was not his business, but he could not just yet
bring
himself to stop the quill. The quill then rested itself for a few
moments,
still half-suspended in the air and Harry suddenly imagined he saw
Hermione,
as in a lingering image behind the eyelids, settling her pen on the
paper
while she paused to think. He had seen the gesture so many times.
The
quill moved up a line. Words continued to appear, right to left.
night
by
moon
the
nor
day
"Suppose she's written a love sonnet?' George grinned. "Bet we can
guess
wh-"
The words clanged very unpleasantly in Harry's mind. He shuddered
as
if with cold, the cold of a stormy day in Azkaban. He grasped the
quill,
and it struggled in his hand to reach the parchment and continue
writing.
"Stop it," Harry muttered. "Stop the spell."
Fred frowned. George muttered obediently.
"Sorry, guys," Harry said softly. "That's really great. But I think
I
know- try it with someone else, okay?"
Fred and George looked at each other, as Harry grabbed the
parchment.
He walked over to the fire and threw it in. George stood up and went
over
to Harry. He put his hand on Harry's shoulder. "Sorry about that,
Harry,
we didn't mean to upset you."
"No, that's okay. Just... reminded me of something..."
"Come here, okay? Let's have a hand of Exploding Snap," George
said.
Harry followed him, grateful to put the awkward moment behind them.
Fred
had an expression on his face Harry found completely
uncharacteristic
for him. He realized with a start that it was shame.
Harry's mind was not on the game. He was brought to every few
moments
as another card went "bang" in his fingers, and George and Fred
starting
laughing again, although Harry could see a curious concerned glance
from
George every few moments. Something was nagging at Harry's mind.
Another
"pow" from his hand seemed to suddenly awaken the stirring thought.
"Hey!"
"What?" said Fred.
"I've just had an idea-" Harry rose from his seat and ran up the
stairs
to his dormitory, leaving George and Fred mystified. Harry was back
a
minute later, a scroll in his hand.
"That's our map!" George said. "Don't go flashing that about."
"No," Harry said. "Listen- what you did to that quill- could you do
it
to this map?"
"What do you mean?" Fred asked.
"Make it go backwards. Make the little marks go backwards, through
time."
Harry grasped the scroll tightly in his hand, waving it at Fred.
George raised his eyebrows. "Well. I don't know about that- I mean,
the
markings are magic- not just quill marks. But, well, we could try."
He
looked over at Fred, who had a smile growing on his face. Harry
recognized
the face of someone who tasted a challenge.
"What do you want it to show? Something devilish, I hope," George
said,
grinning.
"Absolutely," Harry said. "I want to see the morning of September
nineteenth."
***
It only took an hour. Harry had left Fred and George to their
devices,
but much sooner than expected they were beckoning him back to their
corner
of the common room. Fred and George, through some unspoken
arrangement
with the rest of Gryffindor house, seemed to have special
entitlement
to the little turret-nook at the corner of the room, the most
private
spot in the Tower, at least the most private where students were
permitted
to go. Only a few of Gryffindor's recognized couples shared this
entitlement,
and when the high armchairs were turned toward the window with back
to
the common room, everyone understood that the occupants were not to
be
disturbed.
"Bingo, Harry," Fred grinned. "We've done it. It's tough going,
though.
The map really is interested in the here and now, not in what's gone
by."
George was waving his wand over the map, which was spread over the
low
table. Harry saw the labelled points moving across the great map. In
a
corner there were "Fred Weasley", "George Weasley" and "Harry
Potter"
clumped together. "Ron Weasley" and "Hermione Granger" were situated
on
either side of a library table. ("Turning into a bit of a prig,
isn't
he?" George observed, obviously noticing the same thing as
Harry).
There was a sweep of George's wand, and suddenly "Harry Potter"
swept
away from the common room and up the dormitory stairs. The points
began
to move faster and faster. All the points converged suddenly on the
four
Houses. "That's this morning," Fred said. "Everyone back in
bed."
Now the points zoomed around at dizzying speed, every minute or so
coalescing
back in the Houses for a few seconds' rest. The three of them
counted
the days backwards. "October second... October first... September
thirtieth..."
"Slow down here, can you?" Harry said. They had reached the
nineteenth.
George moved the wand and the points began to move in a more
leisurely
fashion.
"Care to tell us what we're looking for, Harry?" Fred asked.
"I want to see who was first out of the castle, in the
morning."
The map was wound back to before sunrise, then George circled his
wand
slowly forward. A few house-elves appeared in the kitchen. Then
"Harry
Potter" and "Ginny Weasley" stirred in Gryffindor Tower, converged
in
the common room and walked down to the Entrance Hall. Fred and
George
looked at each other, expressions edging toward a smirk. "Never you
mind,"
Harry muttered pre-emptively.
The two points moved together out onto the grounds. Then Harry saw
what
he was looking for.
"Draco Malfoy" appeared in the Entrance Hall, then moved outside,
not
far behind "Harry" and "Ginny".
"Malfoy!" Harry exclaimed. "No surprise there."
"What on earth is going on, Harry?" Fred's voice was no longer
humourous.
"Shh," Harry hissed.
"Harry" and "Ginny" stayed still in one very tight spot for an
embarrassingly
long time. To Harry's horror, "Draco" was only a few feet away.
Seven
cloudy points appeared around "Harry" and "Ginny". The names were
indistinct
and illegible. Harry shuddered. These were the names of people with
no
souls left. Then "Harry" and "Ginny" moved toward the cluster of
points.
"Draco" was fading back toward the castle.
Suddenly "Ginny Weasley" vanished, and was replaced by a new name.
George
jumped in his seat. "Who is Argo Rathbone?" he said. "Where did
Ginny
go-"
"I'll explain," Harry said shortly. "Hold on a minute." Who
would
come next, Harry thought. Who was meant to be there, other than
Malfoy-
Seven points were approaching. Seven? That makes eight, but
there
are only seven bodies. Harry's eyes were wide. "Atholstan, he's
in
Slytherin, of course, but... Heskwith- he's in Ravenclaw! And
Bolger,
she's Hufflepuff!"
"Harry" and "Argo Rathbone" charged up toward the castle, and the
six
points scattered. "Draco Malfoy" was already back inside, moving
toward
Slytherin Tower.
"Guys," Harry said finally. "Will you do me a favour? Don't tell
anyone
about this."
"How could we, Harry?" George said. "We don't even know what this
is
about."
"Thanks, guys," Harry said, and ran out of the corner. “Oof!” Harry
exclaimed
in surprise as he nearly knocked a passing Neville Longbottom over
in
his haste. Neville raised his hands in apology.
On his way toward the stairs to the dormitory, he was stopped in
his
tracks by Ginny, who had been watching him from a study table, and
stood
awkwardly as he had approached. Harry felt a flash of anger,
thinking
to himself that this was not a convenient time, and then he felt a
flash
of shame at his anger.
"Hello, Harry, I wanted to-" she said, quite tentatively. Harry saw
that
she was wearing the hair-ribbon that she had lent to Hermione, which
at
that moment was changing from green to purple.
"Hi Gin!" Harry said, speaking quickly and excitedly to conceal his
momentary
rush of annoyance. "I think-" He moved closer to her and whispered.
"I
think I might have found who the students were- the other
week..."
Ginny raised her eyebrows. She clearly understood what he was
talking
about. "How?"
Harry held out his map, then realised that that would entail many,
many
explanations. "Well... it's a long story. Let's find Ron and
Hermione-
I'll tell you all about it."
"They're in the library again," Ginny said, and they headed for the
portrait
hole.
***
Walking through the corridors alongside Ginny was awkward and
strange.
She was acting... normally, but Harry felt anything but normal
around
her. Ginny seemed to have wanted to speak to him before. Harry
wondered
what she was going to say. A part of him desperately wanted to ask
what
she was thinking. Not that he would dare, of course. Another part
didn't
want to know at all.
"Harry?"
A voice came from behind which almost caused Harry to jump. It was
Cho.
I can't believe this, Harry thought to himself. Ginny
stopped
walking beside him.
"Sorry... were you on your way somewhere?" Cho said, looking from
Harry
to Ginny and back.
"Just the library," Ginny said. "No matter."
"Well, I just wanted to say... we've got a few more people
interested
in a game tomorrow morning at eleven. Are you up for it?"
Harry looked over at Ginny, then couldn't account for quite why he
did.
"Er, yeah, I'll be there."
"Great," Cho said. "See you then."
"Yeah," Harry said, and watched her walk away.
He turned and saw Ginny looking directly at him. She had a strange
expression
on her face. The ribbon in her hair was suddenly a bright red that
looked
altogether wrong against her hair colour.
"Ahh!" she exclaimed suddenly in a harsh whisper, her face flushing
red.
"Stop looking like that. I'm going to bloody leave you alone, all
right?"
"What?" Harry's mind flushed itself of all thought. He did not
register
Ginny's words at all.
"You don't have to run around looking all guilty-like. You look
more
pathetic than me, even. I'm not planning on bothering you anymore. I
am
frankly too tired to care."
"Ginny, no, that's not-"
"Don't humour me. We have more important things to worry about.
Just
talk to me like a bloody person, please. Things will go much easier
that
way."
Ginny began walking down the staircase at a trot. Harry followed,
speechless.
His mind had gone from blank to full of raging, incomprehensible
noise
as they made their way through the corridors. Ginny was going at a
pace
that was making it difficult for him to keep up.
When they arrived at the library, they spotted Ron and Hermione
deep
in a stack of books and scrolls at a study table. Crossing the room
in
haste, Harry saw Hermione suddenly shut her book when she spotted
Harry
and Ginny approaching.
"What's your big secret, then?" Ginny said testily to Ron as
he
shoved some parchment scrolls away hastily.
"Nothing, to you," Ron muttered.
Harry had to concentrate hard to explain his discovery to Ron and
Hermione
while an acid ache of shame burned behind his eyes. He must have
succeeded
in explaining himself, though, because they looked increasingly
delighted
at the prospect of catching Malfoy taking part in something that
could
get him expelled or even arrested. But their smiles notched down as
Harry
listed the names of the other students.
"Anne Bolger!" Hermione said, eyes wide. "I've helped her
study!"
"This is terrible!" Ron said. "Can there really be that many
students
involved? Some of them... well, some of them aren't even
Slytherins!"
"We've got to tell... who can we tell?" Hermione said.
"Don't think Percy and his friends will be too receptive," Ron said
with
a trace of disgust. "We'll probably wind up the ones in trouble, and
meanwhile
they'll blow the names so that everyone can disappear."
"Moody," Harry said. "Only he knows."
"Do you want to go to the Slytherin dormitories to call on him?"
Ron
said, smiling grimly.
"Tomorrow morning," Harry said. "We'll catch him at breakfast."
***
Harry had difficulty sleeping that night. His mind was turning over
so
many thoughts that he wished he could get his hands on a Pensieve.
Somewhere
in the castle eight Death Eaters were sleeping, eight people who
were
willing to give their bodies over to Dark wizards bent on the
destruction
of the school. What did they hope to gain? What sorts of rewards did
Voldemort
offer to these people? What would make them willing to work for
killers?
And were there others?
On top of that, a sick, embarrassed feeling had sat in his stomach
since
his talk with Ginny, or rather, Ginny's talk with him. He was sure
Ginny
must have seen him watching Cho walk away. Harry could not remember
how
long he had watched Cho, but he could not forget the look on Ginny's
face
when he turned back to face her. He had never even imagined her
being
angry before. She had wanted to say something to him, and he had
talked
right over her. What did he stop her from saying? She said she
wouldn't
bother him anymore. What did that mean? A regretful sting- did that
mean
she didn't-
"Haaaaaaaaaaah-!"
Harry jumped suddenly to alertness. The noise was coming from Ron's
bed-
a strangled breath. Ron began hyperventilating. Was he having a
nightmare?
Harry sat up and looked over toward his bed, but saw nothing in the
dark.
He grabbed his wand from under his covers, and whispered, "Lumos".
Ron's
eyes had sprung wide open, but Harry could not say for sure if he
was
actually awake. Harry stepped out of his bed. In the faint light he
saw
that Neville and Seamus were awake, blinking.
"What's wrong with him?" Seamus said.
Harry looked down at Ron, who suddenly sat up, his eyes wide with
horror.
"Harry! Harry! I'm dying-" Ron grasped Harry's wrist. "Hermione's
alone-
!"
"No, Ron, relax-"
"Harry, go to Hermione's room!" Ron said, in panicked anger. "She's
alone-
!"
Harry, confused, stood still.
"NOW!" Ron said, in full voice, but his eyes shut themselves tight.
Harry
ran to the door, and down the stairs. He did not understand, and
wondered
what Hermione would think about Harry knocking on her door in the
middle
of the night. He ran across the common room, and down the corridor
toward
Hermione's room. He stopped and knocked lightly on her door. There
was
a cold, breathless shriek from inside that caused Harry to jump.
"It's Harry!" Harry said, as quietly as possible, although the yell
must
have woken Lupin, across the corridor, if not the whole house.
"Harry!" Hermione's voice was breathless like Ron's. Harry opened
the
door. Hermione was sitting up in her bed, shivering, the covers
wrapped
tightly around her as she hugged her knees. "Oh god oh god I'm
dying..."
she whispered. Her eyes were wide and hollow.
Lupin came into the room behind Harry, his own wand lit. "What's
wrong,
Hermione?" he said. She did not answer. Lupin looked over at Harry.
"Ron's
like this too," Harry whispered to him. "He told me to come down
because
Hermione is by herself..."
Lupin went back to his room, leaving Harry alone with Hermione for
a
moment. He didn't know what to do. Hermione seemed at best only
half-aware
that he was in the room. He walked over, sat on the bed, and
tentatively
put a hand on her shoulder. This must have been the right thing to
do,
because she then curled up like a baby and pressed herself into his
chest.
"I'm cold," she said to nobody.
Lupin came back into the room, holding a package which Harry
recognized
as his stock of medicinal chocolate, which he himself had tasted
many
times in his learning to deal with Dementors. He broke off a
generous
chunk and handed it to Harry. "Make sure she eats this as soon as
she
has her breath," Lupin said. "Bring her out to the common room when
she
can walk. I'm going to see Ron right away."
Lupin left Harry holding Hermione, whose breathing slowly relaxed.
She
started to uncurl, and Harry wondered if he could edge away from her
yet.
Something told him not to. Harry handed her the chocolate.
"Chocolate,"
he explained. "Lupin said to eat it." Hermione nodded. She sat up,
to
Harry's relief, her hair in a disordered mop. She still shivered
slightly
as she ate the chocolate. "Lupin's gone to see Ron?" Hermione
said.
Harry nodded. "What's happening, Hermione?"
"Ron and I, last night, we both had nightmares. About what happened
in
Azkaban. He told me just this morning. But this was worse, by far,"
Hermione
explained, her voice still shaking. "This wasn't even a dream. I
thought-
I was sure I was dying."
"Is this what you were- in the library, you covered up the books
you
were-"
"Yes. Sorry. We were going to tell you- it just felt like... our
problem."
"It's okay. Can you walk?" Harry asked. "Lupin wants me to take you
to
the common room."
Hermione nodded. She stood uneasily and pulled a dressing-gown from
over
the end of her bed. Harry followed her, close behind as she teetered
along
the corridor.
Ron was there in a huge armchair, wrapped in a blanket. Lupin sat
on
a footstool, watching him carefully. Hermione sat down, squeezing
herself
into the same chair next to Ron. "Hi," she said.
"Hi," Ron said quietly.
"Can either of you tell me what's happened?" Lupin asked with
concern,
watching Ron's face as he spoke.
"This is because of Azkaban, isn't it?" Harry said. "What
Dumbledore
was trying to warn you about."
Ron shrugged. "We have no idea. Probably."
"Dumbledore had no idea, either," Lupin said. "He didn't know what
to
expect. He just knew something had to happen. You don’t go through a
spell
like that unscathed."
"You knew about Azkaban?" Harry said, startled.
Lupin nodded. "Dumbledore told me last week, when he found out the
Committee
was coming. Told me to keep an eye on you two," he added, looking to
Ron
and Hermione.
All four started when the portrait hole swung open behind them. It
was
Mundungus Fletcher, the monitor for Hufflepuff house. His eyes were
wide
and frightened. "Oh... Lupin, you're awake. Can you come-"
"Hands are full, Mundungus. What's up?" Lupin said. Fletcher's eyes
moved
to the students. "Go ahead," Lupin prompted.
"A student's been attacked, in her bed, just a few minutes ago,"
Fletcher
explained. "She's within an inch of her life."
"Who!" the four said simultaneously.
"Anne Bolger," Fletcher said.
Harry, Ron and Hermione looked at each other. Somehow they all
understood
they should say nothing just yet. "Go ahead, sir," Harry said. "I'll
watch
them."
Lupin stood up and followed Fletcher out of the room.
***
Only a few minutes later, Lupin was back, looking shaken. “Anne
Bolger
is a mess,” he said. “Somebody used a curse that, well, simply put,
it
scrambles your insides. They’re summoning magical surgeons to
Hogsmeade.
It will be a close-run thing. Hufflepuff tower is in a panic. The
Phoenix
Mark was hanging in Anne’s dormitory.”
Harry looked at Ron, expecting an explanation. Five years in, he
still
encountered bits of knowledge wizards took for granted that meant
nothing
to him. However, this time, Ron looked just as puzzled.
“What’s that?” Hermione asked finally.
“Right, you wouldn’t necessarily know about that,” Lupin nodded.
“The
Phoenix Mark is an image of a flaming feather that hangs in the air.
It’s
an answer to You-Know-Who’s Dark Mark. There was- or is, I suppose-
a
secret organisation called the Order of the Phoenix. So secret that
to
this day not one single member has been identified. They believed
that
the best way to root out the Death Eaters was summary murder,” Lupin
said,
disgust evident in his voice. “You-Know-Who promises his followers
that
he can abolish death. What is the Order’s answer? Instant death for
anybody
who considers joining his cause. That would make you think twice,
wouldn’t
it? Except who knows if their victims are guilty. They didn’t go in
for
trials and other niceties. Better too many than too few. The idea of
Anne
Bolger being a Death Eater seems absurd.”
Harry looked over at Ron and Hermione. Hermione nodded slightly.
“Maybe not so absurd,” Harry muttered. Harry explained what the map
had
shown him earlier that evening, while Lupin’s eyes grew wider.
“Why didn’t you tell me right away!” Lupin said sharply.
“We didn’t know you knew about Azkaban,” Harry protested. “We were
going
to find Moody in the morning.”
Lupin nodded. “Yes, I’m sorry. You were quite right in the
circumstances,
of course. There is another side to this… I don’t know if you
noticed.
Hermione, Ron, your… nightmare, it began exactly when Anne was
attacked.”
“They…” Hermione began, then stopped.
“Why?” Ron asked.
“I don’t know. I- I have guesses,” Lupin said nervously, noticing
Hermione
looking down darkly. “I think it is a very good thing, for you both,
that
Anne was not killed. I wish that I could consult with Dumbledore… in
fact…”
“Marzipan,” Harry muttered.
Lupin smiled. “Exactly so. I see you enjoyed the strawberries too.
We
will arrange something in the morning. In the meantime, you should
all
return to bed. I am expected to do some night-watchman duty tonight.
Ron,
Hermione, finish your chocolate. In the morning, I want you to go to
Madam
Pomfrey and get yourselves enough to eat two ounces every hour,
without
fail.” Lupin stood to go. Hermione muttered “Um…” but then closed
her
mouth.
Ron seemed to read her mind. He looked over at Lupin, who seemed to
read
his.
“Right,” Lupin said. “Go up to Ginny’s dormitory, Hermione. I would
really
feel better if you weren’t by yourself.” Hermione smiled slightly,
and
Ron nodded at Lupin gratefully, squeezing Hermione’s hand. Harry
caught
the gesture out of the corner of his eye, and felt a stab of longing
to
see Ginny himself. Lupin left them in the dark common room.
***
In the night, the seven other students, besides Anne Bolger, that
Harry
had named to Lupin were rounded up and brought to the staff room.
There
were no further incidents, and when Harry arrived in the Great Hall
for
breakfast, Ekers from the committee made a perfunctory announcement
that
the magical surgeons had saved Anne Bolger, but that her
convalescence
would be long. Harry could tell the Monitors and some of the
teachers
had had long nights. The Monitors were strolling exhaustedly up and
down
the aisles as the students ate and speculated. There was no keeping
this
incident secret. Every Hufflepuff had been present.
The Hufflepuff table was in shock. A third-year girl, a close
friend
and dormitory-mate of Anne Bolger's, was in tears, surrounded by a
gaggle
of girls who seemed to be consoling her while at the same time
trying
to get details of the story. The girl looked like she was hardly
able
to speak for the shock- her best friend was not only badly hurt but
also
unveiled as a possible dangerous traitor. Harry wanted to wish away
all
the curious students surrounding her- he had some idea of how
undesirable
this kind of attention was.
Harry sat with Ron, Hermione and Ginny, all of whom were quiet and
tired.
"Terrible screams," Harry could hear bubbling over from the
Hufflepuffs
at the neighbouring table. "A great, flaming feather…"
As he left the table and made for the exit with his friends, Harry
felt
a hand grab his arm. He turned to see Draco Malfoy staring at him,
the
usual hostility on his face mixed with apprehension. Harry noticed
that
Crabbe and Goyle were not with him.
"Potter," Malfoy whispered viciously. Hermione, Ron and Ginny all
turned
their heads at once at the sound of his voice.
Malfoy saw this and addressed them. "I’ve got business with Potter.
Sod
off."
Ron slowly reached for his wand. "You can tell it to all of us,
Malfoy."
Draco Malfoy tried to look defiant, but Harry could see that
something
made him too frightened to argue.
"Keep it in your trousers, Weasley," Malfoy spat. "Potter, tell
your
friends they’ve got it all wrong."
Harry looked over at Ron, Ginny and Hermione, confused. "My
friends?
What are you talking about?"
"Don’t play thick. The ones who set off that Mark in my dormitory.
I
didn’t have anything to do with it. They’ve got it wrong."
Harry gaped at him. Malfoy is terrified of us, he thought.
It
was a delicious realization, and he could not bring himself to own
up
and ruin it so soon.
"I saw what I saw, Malfoy. You were there," Harry said coldly.
Malfoy’s face was a picture of impotent rage. "You’re fools and
murderers,
Potter!" Malfoy hissed. He began to walk away, raising his voice so
that
the whole Hall could hear. "You’re a murderer, Potter. I’m going to
make
sure everyone knows it!" Professor Figg angrily beckoned Malfoy back
to
his table, where the six other suspects that Harry had named shared
their
meal.
"Sure," Ron muttered. "Takes one to know one."
"Hold up, Harry," came another voice from the aisle leading to the
exit.
Harry turned. It was Lupin.
"I'll find you later," Harry whispered to his friends. Ron, Ginny
and
Hermione went out the doorway, while Lupin caught up to Harry.
Lupin dropped his voice. "Shall we try to see Dumbledore?"
Harry nodded. "All right," Lupin said. "We might want to… make use
of
something of yours. The Committee has its office right by the
entrance
to Dumbledore’s quarters. We won’t be able to get by unnoticed."
"I’ll get the cloak," Harry said.
***
The invisibility cloak could not possibly have fit Harry, Ron and
Hermione
all together any more. Harry had not worn it since he was somewhat
smaller,
and it took very careful and deliberate movement to conceal himself
and
Lupin. "This is so queer," Lupin whispered. “Last time I did this I
was
with James.”
The hall was deserted, but there seemed to be quite a commotion
coming
from the chamber where the committee had set up shop. Harry and
Lupin
stopped by the entrance, which stood part-way open. A drawling,
superior
voice emerged from the chamber.
"-unable to ensure the safety of students from these terrorists, I
certainly
see no need to continue supporting-"
Lucius Malfoy, Harry realised.
The next voice was the oldest of the committee wizards, Ekers. "Mr
Malfoy,
there is no reason to believe that the Order had anything to do with
this,
if they even exist. Anybody can cast a Mark."
"I intend to remove my son from the school immediately, and
withdraw
my family’s endowment. A girl is nearly killed, and you try to tell
me
this is somebody’s joke," Malfoy hissed.
"Of course we can’t stop you, if that is your decision, Mr Malfoy."
The
voice was Percy’s, strained and exasperated.
"Yes we bloody can," Ekers croaked testily.
Lupin whispered close to Harry’s ear. "We won’t get a better chance
than
this."
They moved in close to the gargoyle that guarded the entrance to
Dumbledore’s
quarters. "Marzipan," Lupin whispered. The door moved aside
silently.
The spiral stairway was immobile this time. Harry gathered up the
cloak,
and they stepped gingerly up the stairs.
Dumbledore opened the door of his office. "Visitors!" he said,
smiling
warmly. "How marvellous! Please come in. Am I to assume our friends
on
the committee are not aware of your presence?"
"Quite right," Lupin said, taking a seat in front of Dumbledore's
vast
desk. Harry remained standing just inside the doorway.
"Do come sit, Harry," Dumbledore said, smiling. "There is no need
to
stand on ceremony. I am not your Headmaster at the moment."
Harry moved forward. "Yes, you are, sir." Harry sat.
Dumbledore smiled. "Well, well, that's most gracious. Glad as I am
to
see you both, I expect it's too much to hope that you bring happy
news."
"I'm afraid so," Lupin said. Lupin gave an account of the attack on
Anne
Bolger, and the appearance of the Phoenix Mark. Dumbledore's face
grew
darker. Harry filled in the story with his discoveries from the map
and
Draco Malfoy's denial of his involvement with the conspiracy.
Dumbledore nodded. "I know the Malfoys of old. Draco may have
learned
about the plot somehow from his father, but Lucius is too shrewd and
clever
to have included Draco. Draco is... not a person given to
discretion.
I expect he tried to beat the others to the rendezvous in order to
involve
himself."
Harry nodded. "Then the only person who believed Malfoy was part of
the
plot was me... and yet, the Mark appeared in his room!"
Lupin and Dumbledore looked at each other. "Somebody got the
information
from you, then, Harry," Lupin said, a slightly cross expression on
his
face. "Who’ve you told?"
"Only Ginny. And Ron, and, well, Hermione of course... and Fred and
George
were there when I found..." Harry trailed off.
"So, nobody really, then," Lupin said, with slight testiness.
"None of them would tell!" Harry said.
"We will have to look at that more closely," Lupin said. "There is
something
else, Professor. It's about Hermione and Ron."
Lupin proceeded to explain Ron and Hermione's strange nightmare,
and
its coincidence with the attack on Anne Bolger. Dumbledore's face
became
increasingly pensive as Lupin spoke. When Lupin concluded,
Dumbledore
stood up without a word, and began examining a shelf containing a
stack
of very ancient-looking manuscript scrolls.
"Hmm," Dumbledore muttered, pulling down a scroll and examining its
contents.
"Yes," he concluded finally. "The last account of something like
this
is from an English wizard travelling in Serbia in 1293. It is not
good,
if my guess is correct."
"What isn't good?" Harry asked. Anything that made Dumbledore look
so
grave must be terrible indeed.
"Do you know about Deathlessness, Remus?" Dumbledore asked.
Lupin opened his eyes wide. "Only as a legend."
Dumbledore nodded. "So did I, until now. Do you care to explain
it?"
Lupin turned to Harry. "Well, Deathlessness is a state... of not
being
dead, really. Although not alive either. A person becomes a sort of
living
corpse, brooding on suffering and pain. Some far-fetched theories
have
it that Dementors are Deathless sunk to their lowest state."
Harry sat bolt upright. "Ron and Hermione are turning into
Dementors?"
he exclaimed.
"No," Dumbledore said. "They are still very much themselves. But if
somebody
suffers a magical death anywhere near them, they may slip into a
Deathless
state. We must prevent that at all costs."
"Well, they can be cured, can't they?" Harry said, an edge of
pleading
in his voice.
"The condition is generally believed to be mythical," Dumbledore
said.
"Nobody has a cure that I know of."
"Well if *you* don't know--" Harry said, then fell silent.
After a silence, Lupin spoke. "I don't like to say it, but the odds
of
a magical death happening at Hogwarts these days are not
negligible."
Dumbledore scratched his beard. "Yes. It is terrible to
contemplate,
but for all its defenses we can no longer assume Hogwarts is a safe
place."
"Well... all I can think of as a preventative," Lupin said, "is an
induced
comatose state. So that their minds cannot be affected. Until they
can
be reasonably safe... or until a cure is found," he added, looking
over
at Harry. Harry read the lack of hope in Lupin's eyes.
"Put them to sleep! That could be years!" Harry said.
"It could be," Dumbledore agreed. "Of course it will have to be
their
own choice. But I see more hope in that than in simply, well,
crossing
our fingers and hoping for the best."
"Harry and I will speak with them," Lupin said. "Madam Pomfrey will
have
the potion if we need it."
***
There was no Quidditch match that morning. Unsurprisingly in the
light
of the night's events, the students were confined to the castle for
the
day. While most of the Hufflepuffs retreated to their dormitories
still
shaken and exhausted, many other students who had no personal
connection
to the previous night's horror chafed at the restrictions imposed on
their
Saturday activities. The corridors were full of restless students
making
what they could of their free day. Harry, Ron and Hermione had some
difficulty
making their way to the hospital wing, as students rushed around,
appearing
around corners, tossing Quaffles up stairways, and evading Filch,
who
was in an apoplexy. Ginny was there too. It seemed appropriate to
Harry
that she should hear this information as well.
"What's this about, Harry?" Hermione said. "Last night?"
Harry nodded. He realised he must have appeared oddly silent, not
having
said a word since calling Ron and Hermione away from their chess
game
to lead them to the hospital wing. He had a sick, sad feeling in his
stomach,
and could not bring himself to reveal any details of his
conversation
with Dumbledore. As he walked first toward Gryffindor Tower and now
back
out toward the hospital wing, the implications were sinking in... he
would
be losing his friends. Only minutes from now, they could be
silenced...
who could guess for how long... the horror he had been acquainted
with
a couple of weeks before was returning...
"Lupin wants to tell you something... he has some ideas..." Harry
said
falteringly, feeling cowardly. He caught Hermione looking at Ron
quizzically.
Lupin seemed surprised to see Ginny enter along with the others,
but
he raised no objections. "Good, then," he said, clutching and
unclutching
his hands. "Why don't we all take a seat then." Madam Pomfrey was
pottering
about at the back of the ward. Harry suspected she had already been
told,
and might even now be preparing the potion. "What I have to say is
difficult.
I'm going to be as direct as I can."
Harry did not interrupt as Lupin told Ron and Hermione about their
visit
to Dumbledore that morning. At first they appeared merely confused,
but
as the implications of Lupin's words sank in, their faces became
blanker.
"This is happening to us now?" Ron said. "We're... one of these
Deathless?"
"No," Lupin explained. "You're not. But if you... feel another
person's
death, you may become it. You will have experienced the death
without
dying. You came very close last night."
Hermione grimaced. "What can we do?"
Lupin inhaled deeply. "Nothing. We don't have a cure. We can only
prevent
you from undergoing that experience. Right now we can't say for
certain
that nobody will be killed at Hogwarts. First the Death Eaters, now
the
Order of the Phoenix, have attacked the school. Yet I can't name
anywhere
in the world that would be safer. All we can think of... is to turn
your
minds off. So that if it does happen... you won't be affected. We-
Madam
Pomfrey can induce a coma. We would revive you periodically, of
course,
when we felt it was safe-"
"And that would be when, exactly?" Ron said, his composure starting
to
crack. "When You-Know-Who's defeated?"
"Or when we've found a remedy," Lupin said. "Which we will look
for.
But the risk of losing you both-"
"Are you giving us a choice?" Ron said, his voice edged with
anger.
"Ron," Hermione whispered.
"Of course you have a choice," Lupin said. "Of course. But it comes
with
a strong recommendation. We love you. We want you to live."
Harry and Ginny both looked up at these words, and nodded their
agreement.
There was a silence.
Hermione, her face flushed red, stood up and walked over to Lupin,
and
cupped her hand over her mouth. Lupin leaned over to allow her to
whisper
in his ear.
Ron smiled grimly. "I know what she said, sir. I was going to say
the
same thing."
Harry saw Hermione give Ron a look which Ron could not hold. Ron
looked
away from her, blushing. "Anyway," he mumbled. Harry knew that they
were
both thinking what he would have said in the same position- she
would
only go along if he did.
"I suppose that's a yes, then," Hermione said tiredly.
"It could be a week," Harry said.
"Or ten years," Hermione said.
"Or never," Ron said. "If You-Know-Who wins."
"Then we'll be luckier than anybody," Hermione said.
"He won't," Harry said icily. He surprised himself. He must have
surprised
Ginny, too. She looked at him with an expression much like fear.
Hermione's hands were clenched. "Well... honestly, this is... can
you
give us an hour or so? I'd like to... I don't know, write some
letters,
I suppose." She almost seemed to laugh at this.
Ron stood up and started to pace. "Don't you all forget about us
and
leave us here, will you?"
Harry and Ginny both shook their heads dumbly. The suggestion was
too
absurd to merit an answer.
***
Lupin, Harry and Ginny had left Ron and Hermione for an hour. It
had
taken an alarmingly large part of the hour for Harry and Ginny to
explain
the story to an increasingly horrified Fred and George.
"Bloody hell," Fred had said. "Why were we never told?"
The looks of genuine hurt on the twins' faces as Ginny told them
the
story broke Harry's heart.
"We couldn't tell anyone," Ginny said. "Sorry, really. You'll come,
then?"
"Don't be barmy," Fred said. That settled that.
"Does Percy know?" George said.
Harry looked at Ginny. With shame, Harry realised it had not even
occurred
to him to advise Percy. Ginny expressed no such surprise as she
shook
her head. Clearly it had been on her mind.
"I haven't yet," she said, with a grimace. "I don't know how to
tell
him. I don't know how he'll react, and..." Here Ginny paused. "I
don't
even know if we can trust him."
"You've got to, Gin," George said with finality. "There's no way
around
it. He's family. And anyway, he's as much as running the school now.
How
d'you think he'll take it if he finds all this happened under his
nose?"
"We'll go with you," Fred offered.
Harry watched Ginny, who was deep in thought. Everyone somehow
seemed
to acknowledge that she was in charge in this situation, and Harry
could
not help watching her thoughtful face with a swelling admiration. In
the
last couple of weeks, she had been called upon to act with a very
level
head several times. This seriousness, which Harry had not really
noticed
before, became her.
"No," Ginny declared finally. "No, it'll be worse if he thinks
we're
all going in ganging up on him. I'll tell him myself."
Ginny stood up. Harry, without thinking, stood up as well. "I'll go
alone,"
Ginny said, noticing this. "I'm family. They'd boot you right out,
I'm
sorry to say," she said, smiling. She walked off toward the portrait
hole,
and Harry watched her go. He turned back to see Fred and George
watching
him rather than their sister, a wry amusement on their faces.
"She's all right, you know," George said. "We can vouch for
her."
Harry blushed. "Yeah, I suppose," he muttered, unable to hold the
twins'
amused eyes.
***
"Prat."
Ginny's sudden outburst startled Harry. He had not seen her coming,
as
he waited in a discreet corner a few yards from the archway leading
into
the wing containing the staff quarters.
"Absolute bloody self-important smug little cold-hearted prat,"
Ginny
elaborated as Harry caught up with her. She was proceeding down the
corridor
at a storming pace.
"He's not coming, then?" Harry said, already panting for the effort
of
keeping up.
"Oh, he's coming," Ginny said. She adopted a mocking supercilious
tone.
"’Absolutely shocking that you should endeavour to conceal this from
the
Committee. Demand that you cease and desist from any action ‘til
we're
there. Lupin ought to be ashamed,’" Ginny spat sarcastically. "That
sort
of rubbish. We'll have to get there fast."
Harry and Ginny ran up staircases and down corridors until they
came
finally to the hospital wing. Fred and George were there already
when
they arrived, waiting outside the door of the ward.
"Don't know if we want to go in just yet," Fred hissed, as Harry
and
Ginny came to a halt.
Ginny spoke at full volume. "But we can't wait--"
Ginny broke off. Harry heard the sound of raised voices inside the
ward.
His heart sank with foreboding.
"You see what I mean," Fred said with a hopeless shrug.
At that moment, Lupin arrived, and looked at the gathered group,
his
eyes darting puzzledly from one face to the other. Harry saw
understanding
in Lupin's eyes when the voices from inside erupted once more.
Ginny wasn't having any of it. She stepped forward and pushed the
great
door aside. Ron and Hermione were there, a distressing tableau.
Hermione
was sitting on the edge of one of the beds, her eyes puffy. Ron was
standing
with his arms crossed, facing away from her.
"Oh, why do you have to spoil everything!" Hermione cried out, near
tears.
"What is this all about?" Ginny said indignantly as Harry followed
her
in. Ron was standing, looking furious.
"She wrote to Krum!" Ron said. "What's that for, eh?"
"I told you, he's a *friend*," Hermione said. "He'll wonder about
me,
if I just vanish off the face of the earth!"
"I didn't even know you were still writing to him!"
"What a time to be jealous!" Hermione said. "I don't know why I...
you've
been so good to me since- why now, of all times, do you have to be
cruel?"
"Cruel, am I?" Ron snapped. "At least I only have one
girlfriend!"
Ron said icily.
"Do you now!" Hermione said with a humourless laugh.
Ron plopped himself in a chair, facing away from Hermione. The two
of
them fell into sulky silence.
Ginny looked at Harry and bugged her eyes, shaking her head with
disbelief.
"Excuse me, so sorry, but we haven't got loads of time," Ginny
said,
an exasperated sting in her voice. She turned toward Lupin. "Percy's
bringing
the Committee."
Lupin raised his eyebrows. "We do not appear to have the luxury of
making
peace."
Hermione shuddered. "Suits me fine. Knock me out now."
"Yeah, no problem," Ron spat.
Lupin looked pained. Harry looked pleadingly from one of his best
friends
to the other.
"Can't you two... settle this... for now?" Harry said, faltering
and
feeling stupid.
"Do you really believe I would do that to you?" Hermione said
bitterly
to the air in front of her.
Ron heaved a heavy sigh. "I don't know."
The other occupants of the room shuffled awkwardly as the air
remained
tense.
"This is... regrettable," Lupin muttered finally.
At that moment, the door burst aside once again. Percy came in, and
stopped
in his tracks as seven pairs of eyes turned on him at once. He
looked
at Lupin, then at Hermione, then at Ron.
Percy appeared to lose his nerve, and cleared his throat.
"Erm..." Percy began weakly. "Officially, as a member of the
Governing
Committee, I must, erm, insist that you await our approval before
taking
any, erm, action of this sort..."
Percy then did something that nobody in the room expected. He
walked
over to Hermione, and wrapped his arms around her shoulders, hugging
her
tightly. It was as if he had squeezed a sob out of her, and she
began
weeping without restraint. Percy released her, then walked over and
did
the same to Ron. Ron squeezed his eyes tight and looked as though he
might
explode as his brother embraced him.
Percy released Ron, then walked swiftly past the others on his way
out
of the ward, avoiding all of their eyes and pulling the door shut
behind
him. The silence that followed his exit was thick, except for
Hermione's
heavy inhaling of breath.
Hermione spoke finally, facing Ron this time. "I might be eighty
years
old next time you see me," she said. "Suppose you could not be angry
at
me by then?" she concluded, more sad than bitter.
Ron's arms dropped. He looked over at Hermione. "Forget it," he
said
weakly. "Forget about it."
Harry watched them move together and embrace, more politely than
anything,
although he realised it must be hard to say goodbye with five people
watching.
Lupin busied himself with a potion that was steaming quietly on a
nearby
table. "You won't be eighty," Lupin said with a reassuring smile.
"As
soon as we think you'll be safe, we'll bring you round. Even if just
for
a while."
It did not seem necessary to say effusive farewells. Fred, George,
Harry
and Ginny simply pulled up chairs between the beds where Ron and
Hermione
sat waiting. "You'll take notes, won't you?" Hermione instructed
Harry,
her voice steadying. "We don't want to wind up hopelessly behind on
our
O.W.L.s. What a fiasco this is, it couldn't have been
worse-timed."
"Yeah," Ron said with a snort and a grin. "Would have been much
more
convenient on summer hols."
Even Hermione had to smile.
***
After returning from the hospital wing, and a stop at the Owlery to
send
away the notes Hermione and Ron had dashed off to their families and
friends,
Harry had returned to the common room with Fred, George and Ginny,
in
what felt disturbingly like a funeral procession. Silence in a group
of
three Weasleys was a rare and grim occurrence. Though some kind of
peace
had returned before Lupin administered the potion, it still had been
a
rude shock to see Ron's, then Hermione's, eyes roll up as they
slumped
back on their hospital beds. They're not gone, Harry kept
reminding
himself. They're not gone. But friends of Harry Potter were
starting
to seem very thin on the ground.
Harry went to the quiet end of the common room, away from the
fireplace
and toward the turret-nook, which was unoccupied. Ginny followed
him,
for which he was unaccountably grateful. He realised that he had
been
hoping she would. Fred and George, on the other hand, dissolved into
the
knot of students gathered around the fireplace chattering, to
continue
behaving as normal until the manner of announcing Ron and
Hermione's...
absence could be decided upon.
Harry and Ginny took seats in the turret-nook, an event that in
Gryffindor
Tower would be an occasion for rumours to erupt, but at that moment
Harry
did not care. He just wanted something like privacy and quiet.
Harry had so many questions weighing on his mind. Everything seemed
wrong.
A Gryffindor he may have been, but he felt anything but brave.
Everything
was swirling away from him and there was nothing he could do. Ginny
was
sitting by him, silent. Harry looked over at her where she sat,
staring
at her hands in her lap, thoughtful. After about two minutes, having
given
up hope that Ginny would speak first, Harry asked one of the
questions.
"What were you going to tell me yesterday?"
Ginny looked up, her thin orange eyebrows raised in a look of
surprise.
Harry went on.
"You were stopping me to tell me something, but I interrupted
you."
Ginny smiled a lopsided, uncertain smile before she spoke.
"The same thing I said to you later, really, only in a nicer way,"
she
said. "I wanted you to stop avoiding me. I wanted to tell you I...
wasn't
holding you to anything."
Harry felt his face warming. "Oh. Well, that wasn't-"
"It's all right," Ginny said. "I'm not angry with you or anything."
Her
voice dropped to a mumble. "It was my stupid mistake, really."
"It wasn't... that stupid," Harry muttered under his breath.
"I mean," Ginny went on, venturing uncertainly, "I know I'm no
match
for Cho..."
Involuntarily, Harry chuckled. "Cho! It's not like there's any
chance
there..." Immediately he felt his face go another twelve degrees
warmer.
Ginny had winced visibly. Harry wished he knew how to Disapparate on
the
spot. Instead, his stupid flapping mouth moved some more.
"No, I mean, it's not a question of being a match, that is, you're
lovely,
I just argh! No! It's just that it's weird and all what with
you-"
"Being Ron's sister?" Ginny suggested.
Harry stopped speaking.
"Or, being like family? Or, being so nice but really you love me as
a
friend?" Ginny started to breathe rather heavily.
Harry continued to not speak. He was not sure it was going any
better
than the speaking.
Ginny was shaking now. "I really really really really really really
wish I had never met you," she said, her voice quiet, hoarse and
cold.
Harry could not do anything but observe her, shivering like she had
just
been struck by a fever chill, her eyes narrow and angry. He pressed
himself
uncomfortably into his seat, completely at a loss at how he should
act
with this very unfamiliar-looking girl.
After a moment, gathering herself, Ginny went on. "I used to admire
you
so much. Before you were at school, even. Mum's magazines were all
full
of rubbishy articles about you, and how wonderful and brave you
were,
growing up out there with the Muggles, what a marvellous life you
had.
I thought about you a lot. I worked out that you were only a few
months
older, that I might even meet you at school. Spent hours by myself
thinking
about nonsense like that. Completely cracked, I know. I- you don't
want
to hear this."
Ginny came to a full stop and inhaled sharply, but Harry was
transfixed,
watching Ginny talk like she never had before. It was like meeting a
whole
new person. It took Harry a couple of seconds to catch on that she
had
stopped speaking.
"No!" he said, loudly enough to startle himself. "No, I mean, I
want
to hear."
"Oh, it's sickening girl stuff," Ginny said, waving her hand
dismissively.
"It's nonsense. I used to imagine... being your girlfriend, not just
any
girl, not just one of a load of busy chattering Weasleys, not just
target-practice
for six brothers."
Ginny smiled despite herself. "And you know, I thought I might
marry
you and be Mrs the most bloody famous wizard in history. Well," she
said,
her face now a deep red. "Not you, really. The bloke in the
magazines.
It was all made-up stuff, I know."
Harry was amazed. It had never ceased to annoy him how much people
seemed
to know or imagine they knew about him, but the idea that little
girls
across England had idolized him like a teen pop-star had never
occurred
to him... it was too absurd to contemplate!
"Don't laugh at me!" Ginny squealed angrily.
"No," Harry said, trying to get his breath. "No, Gin, I'm not... I
mean,
it's too much, just imagine, in my place, well I never had any idea!
I
was just... me!"
Ginny looked quite put out.
"Honestly, Ginny, I'm not laughing at you," Harry said, wiping his
eyes.
"I just- just- well, I'm sorry I turned out to be such a
disappointment!"
"That's just it," Ginny said, her voice soft. "You weren't.
Otherwise
I would have gotten over this... ridiculous thing... ages ago."
Harry's smile vanished under the very serious look Ginny gave him
in
speaking those words. She held his eyes, and he resolved for once
not
to look away. Instantly he discovered he did not want to
look
away. What had he been afraid of seeing? Anger? Accusation? There
was
nothing of the sort. Her brown eyes were deep, brave. He felt
himself
becoming warm, but it was for once not from embarrassment. Many
seconds
passed. He and Ginny were together for that moment in a very calm,
still
place. He noticed something... he had never seen in anyone... the
set
of her mouth and the lines under her eyes... the crease in her
forehead...
he saw exactly what Ginny would look like when she was old. It was
just
a matter of imagining the lines a little deeper, the cheeks a little
rounder,
the worried furrow in her brow becoming permanent...
"Harry?"
Her soft voice caused something to lift in his throat that seemed
to
compel him to speak. "You... are... not... just... any...
girl,"
Harry said, finding each word as he spoke, and on the last word the
spell
lifted. His mind was no longer still. It was no wonder he had been
avoiding
her... she was... too enormous. He had to know something. He had to
figure
out something about this impossible person whose entire life he felt
he
had just seen. How could he find it out? Ginny was looking at him,
her
face twisting oddly.
"Er," Harry said, reaching his hand out and slipping his fingers
into
her hair. "D'you suppose I could kiss you again?" His voice came out
funny,
deep and croaking.
"Oh!" Ginny's hand went up to her mouth. Her eyes glistened.
"For real. I mean it. I think I'll lose my nerve in a minute,"
Harry
said. His voice was shaking.
Ginny shook her head. "Don't play with my mind, Harry, you're just
upset..."
"I'm serious... I've been ridiculous..." Harry whispered. "Ginny,
oh
Ginny, I'm sorry..."
"Nonsense! Be quiet," Ginny whispered falteringly, eyes wide as
Harry
began to lean in toward her.
"You're so beauti- I mean it!" he added plaintively, as Ginny broke
his
gaze and sat up to look over the back of the chair.
"Yes, yes, all right!" Ginny hissed, flustered. "But I don't want
anyone
looking-" she said.
Harry's hand slid down her shoulder and arm and grasped her hand.
He
wanted desperately to pull her back down behind the shelter of the
armchairs.
"Neville!" Ginny called out suddenly.
"What's that?" Harry said testily. His mind was on fire.
"Neville was here, Harry!" Ginny said.
"Oh, well, is he gone now?" Harry said absently.
"Harry, sweet Harry," Ginny started over, smiling patiently,
"yesterday,
Neville was standing right by here when you were talking to Fred and
George!
He could have heard everything you said to them."
Harry's mind rewound itself.
Ginny went on. "I know it's stupid to imagine that Neville could
work
for the Order of the Phoenix, but maybe he told som-"
That did it.
Of course.
Harry stood up.
He, and he alone, could guess all too well why Neville could work
for
the Order of the Phoenix.
"Right," he said.
Ginny followed Harry as he walked out of the turret-nook.
***
"I didn't know they'd kill, Harry," Neville said, pleading, as
Harry
cornered him in their dormitory room. "I've been sick all day. I had
no
idea."
Harry was struggling with a blank rage. "What did you think you
were
doing?!" he fairly shouted.
Neville winced. "Please. Please be quiet. I know... I have no
right...
I... but please listen to me first-"
"How did you get involved with the Order of the Phoenix!" Harry
interrupted.
Neville's face went blank, baffled, for a moment. "Order-? I... I
didn't
even know they had a name. Years ago, I was at St Mungo's visiting
my
parents. Erm, my parents-"
"I know," Harry said, waving his hand dismissively. Harry startled
himself
with the callousness of the gesture, and resolved to calm
himself.
"You- how? Well, anyway, a woman at the hospital stopped me and
said...
she knew some people who would help catch them. The torturers. And
would
I like to help them. Well, I said yes. She told me a password, a
word
that would appear in messages to prove it was from them."
"And?" Harry urged.
"And, I didn't hear from them for ages. First time was just a week
or
so ago. They sent me an owl, with the password, telling me to watch
you
closely. And... that I'd be sorry if I gave them away."
Harry released Neville's shoulder, which he realised he had been
gripping
with painful force. He sat on the edge his bed.
"Right," Harry said tiredly. "So you told them the names I
mentioned
to Fred and George."
"But I didn't know they were killers. They never said they'd do
that.
They said they would 'catch' the Death Eaters."
"Have you done anything else for them?" Harry asked.
Neville shook his head, speaking quickly. "I- I don't think they're
finished.
I'm worried that they'll... expect more from me. I got a message
this
morning telling me to wait for instructions. Not to breathe a word.
Please,
Harry, you mustn't say anything to anyone. I need your help, Harry.
I
would do anything to get myself out of this. I'll help you catch
them.
Please help me. But please don't tell anyone, or I'll be next."
Harry turned away from Neville, his mind full of noise. Suddenly,
in
a gesture that surprised even himself, Harry grabbed his wand from
the
pocket of his cloak, and viciously, with all his strength, he
pitched
it against the wall of their dormitory. It ricocheted off the wall
with
a SMACK, then off the ceiling, sending red and orange sparks
spurting
aimlessly around the room. The wand settled, unharmed, on Seamus'
bed.
Neville had his back plastered against the wall, looking at Harry,
wide-eyed
and horrified.
Harry looked back at him. He felt loads better.
"Yes, all right, I'll help you."
THE END --- to be continued