The old wizard sat on the cold, stone bench staring
up into the skies, a single deep crimson rose, its petals still tightly closed,
clutched in his hands. All around him was still, save for the cold February
gusts which would occasionally sway the branches of the barren trees and whirl
around the headstones in the cemetery. Occasionally, small gusts would blow
strands of white hair across the wizard’s deeply lined face, but he seemed
oblivious to everything except the sky.
She would have loved this sky, the old man reflected
sadly. She would have called it a Wagner sky, when dramatic clouds would make
vast, billowy castles of pristine white streaked with gray. A sky, he thought
with a small smile, which promised a tempest but usually delivered nothing. Much like the composer they were named for,
and he gave a small snort of contempt. Grand and majestic, but without much substance
"It is truly beautiful this afternoon, is it
not Severus? It’s a Wagner sky, the most beautiful I have ever seen."
Severus Snape started and turned around in the
direction of the voice, a voice he hadn’t heard in sixty years. But then, two
thousand years couldn’t dim his memory of her voice….
said softly. "You are exactly as I remember you."
Lenore gently smiled. "I cannot age,
"I realize that," Snape replied in a voice
tinged with bitterness. "But I have. I have survived the past sixty years
and have seen more than one should bear … and I am tired."
"I know," Lenore said. "That is why I
am here now." She studied the crimson rose in Snape’s
clenched hand. "You have regrets, then, Severus?"
"Regrets?" Snape snorted. "I have
more regrets then the petals of this rose and the others I have left here over
the years. Only recently have I understood what you had tried to teach me, and
how miserably I failed."
Lenore quietly glided over and sat next to the aged
Snape looked at the pale young woman. She was almost
solid-looking, almost … real. Her nut-brown tresses, with streaks of silver,
were in a braid rolled in a tight bun, as he always remembered. Her deep almond
eyes, nearly overwhelming her heart-shaped face, stared into his tired black
ones. He suddenly longed to touch her, but he was afraid if he tried, the
illusion would disappear.
"You tried to teach me to trust, and I pushed
you away," he finally said. "You tried to teach me to hope, but I
refused to even look for it. You tried to teach me to love myself and love
others as myself, but…." Snape laughed bitterly. "That was the lesson
I failed most miserably. You tried to teach me to dance,
I refused to even learn the steps. By the time I tried to love, by the time I
trusted myself enough to want to dance," and he looked away from Lenore,
bitter and resigned. "It was too late. You had already danced with
another, and then you were gone."
"I am sorry," Lenore said in sympathy.
"Why apologize? You were one of the few who
ever showed me any kindness in school … in my life. But I mistrusted your
motives, thinking that you, like everyone else, were being kind with the
thought of using me, of betraying me later. I was afraid."
They sat silently for several moments, the
whispering wind making the only sound and even it seemed to merely sigh.
“Why me, Lenore?” Snape
suddenly asked. “Why did you choose me? I have wanted to ask that ever since….”
his voice trailed off, and he stared at her curiously. “After all I had done,
after all I had said to push you away, you still remained, like an ever-present
shadow. We had little in common.”
“Except each other,” Lenore replied. “We had more in
common that you may think.”
“Such as?” There was no rancor in Snape’s voice. He was too tired for that. The old wizard
felt something light, almost ethereal touch him on the shoulder. It was her
hand, almost solid and yet … not quite there.
“You needed a friend, Severus,”
she whispered, her voice as soft as her touch. “I, too, needed a friend.
Everyone else was caught up in the circle of their own lives, and they had no
time for someone who couldn’t play in their games and could only participate on
a limited basis in the classes. You were the only one who would wait for me and
stay behind, although,” and here, her voice became sympathetic. “Not always of
your own choice. The others left you behind as well, for different reasons. We
needed each other.”
“Yes,” Snape croaked out.
“Perhaps we did. But then … then you left me. You left, and then there was no
Lenore gave a small, wistful sigh that mingled with
the soft breeze. Snape felt the warm pressure leave
his shoulder, and several more silent moments passed.
The older wizard had begun to think that Lenore had
disappeared, or may have only been an illusion conjured by his tired brain. But
when he finally looked up, she was still sitting there, as she always did when
they were together in school. She had always stayed, until that final moment….
"Why did you have to dance with another?"
Snape said bitterly. "Why, after I was finally ready, did you have to
dance … with her?"
"I didn’t have a choice, Severus," Lenore
replied softly, her tone filled with regret. "It was my time."
Snape looked away again and closed his eyes. "I
will never forget that horrible day," he said softly. "I remember it
as vividly as if it were yesterday. I had been thinking about you constantly
before, since the beginning of term that year. I didn’t realize it at first,
but I missed you."
Lenore nodded. "I was too ill to go to Hogwarts
after our fifth year."
"Yes," Snape said,
his voice almost a sigh. "I remember. Then, on a day similar to this one,
I received your owl. I had permission from the headmaster to go to you, but
even then, I hesitated. I think I was still afraid. But I
finally went, and your parents led me into your house, and I went up…and I saw
you dancing … with her. That horrible creature."
"Do you remember what she looked like?"
Lenore asked unexpectedly, genuine curiosity creeping into her gentle voice.
"Yes," Snape said in anguish as he relived
his memory. "She was terrible, she shone with a glaring light that hurt
the eyes, her hair was a brassy gold and her eyes … so aloof, so … triumphant.
She stared at me with those cold eyes as she held you, and I tried to shout,
tried to warn them, but I couldn’t. Then, the mediwizard called my name, and
told me … he told me you were gone. I was too late. I had missed my final
chance to dance with you."
"No," whispered Lenore, and she smiled
sweetly. "It is not too late. You still have another chance."
"Lenore, you are gone!" Snape cried out in
anguish. "Even now, I’m not sure if I see you, or some tantalizing
illusion, or even if I am dreaming!"
"Severus," the young witch chided gently.
"There is more than her and now, so much more beyond the veil. You have
not seen it, but I have, and …." She broke off and giggled coquettishly, a
musical, bewitching sound that made his heart ache. The young witch held out
her arms. "Would you care to dance, Mr. Severus Snape?"
"Do not tease, Lenore!" Snape said
harshly. "Not now! I can’t bear it!"
Lenore tilted her head and regarded him
thoughtfully, but she did not lower her arms. "That is what you used to
say in school to me," she said. "Any time I told you how charming you
could be, or how intelligent you were, or how I wanted to go to the Quidditch matches or Hogsmeade with
you." She paused, and then added sadly, "I always meant what I said
to you, Severus."
"I know," Snape
said, his voice haunted.
"Then trust me now, Severus," Lenore said,
and she took a step closer. "Come dance with me."
"I … I’m afraid," Snape said, his black
eyes wide. "I’m afraid if I try to touch you, you will disappear!"
Lenore looked at him sorrowfully. "Severus, I
don’t have much time. Please, trust me. Trust yourself."
Snape closed his eyes, and a tear streaked down his
weathered cheek. "That is what you said to me," he reflected, and he
gave a choking sob, "the very last time we talked." He took a deep
breath and, with his eyes still closed, he stood up and took two tentative
steps forward. He reached for her, expecting his fingers to only meet with
empty air … and was shocked as his hands met with warm, solid flesh. Her slim
hands were gently but firmly grasping his own, and she was pressed close to
him. He could even smell traces of jasmine, her favorite scent. He opened his
eyes, his expression one of wonder.
"You lead, Severus," she said, and she
gave another of her sweet laughs.
Snape took a few small steps, and soon they were
waltzing around the headstone, pressed close together, enjoying each other’s
warmth. Snape closed his eyes and rested his cheek lightly on her head,
enjoying the moment.
"Lenore, I…." Snape started to say as he
lowered his head and looked into her face … to find that Lenore was gone, and
in her place was the pale blond figure he had seen dancing with Lenore sixty years
But she was different now. Her eyes were gentle and
kind, and the light she radiated was warm, peaceful.
"Lenore? Where is she?" Snape asked.
"Where did she go?"
The woman laughed, and her voice was like the music
of thousands of tiny silver bells. "She is just a little beyond, Severus.
If you will dance with me just a little while longer, you can then dance with
her as much as you like."
"For eternity," Snape whispered.
"For eternity, then," the woman replied,
her brilliant golden hair rippling as she nodded. "Shall we
The Wagner sky was now streaked with the dramatic
reds, oranges and purples of the setting sun. Two cemetery workers, who were
making their rounds through the cemetery grounds, were startled to find the old
wizard lying next to a tombstone, a peaceful smile on his still, pale face.
And in his hand, he clutched a single white rose in
Author's notes: A deep crimson rose is a
common Victorian symbol for mourning; a pure white rose symbolizes eternal
love. "Lenore" comes from Poe's poem "The Raven."