The walk back to the castle from Hogsmeade was pleasant enough.The cool autumn air that afternoon,
the week before Halloween, was refreshing after the effects of
the trek.Harry was deep in conversation with
Fred and George, discussing tactics for the upcoming Quidditch
season.
Ron and Hermione walked a little bit behind
them in silence, both full to maximum capacity with butterbeer
and Honeydukes sweets, although Ron was probably more so than
Hermione.
"So Ron, are you going to try out for
Keeper, next week?" Hermione asked to start up a new conversation. The last one, over whether it really was possible to
get addicted to Fizzing Whizzbees, had ended a few minutes earlier. Hermione surprised herself by bringing up the topic of Quidditch,
something she certainly didn't obsess over as much as the
boys did.
"I don't know," said Ron
almost quietly, as he stuck his hands into the pockets of his
robes and looked over to Harry and his twin brothers, who were
animatedly discussing some sort of Beater-Chaser attack. "Don't know if I'd
be good enough, really."
"Well, Ginny told me you'd been
practicing all summer."
"Ginny's got a big mouth, hasn't
she?"
Hermione smiled, but decided not get into
another silly argument with Ron about Ginny he was apparently
slightly miffed over the fact that his little sister'
and Harry were getting close. "You really should at least try, I mean, you can't
get anything unless you put your hand up."
"Yeah, I suppose." With that, Ron sighed and continued walking in silence.
After a short while, Hermione turned her
head to look up at him. "Ron? Is something bothering
you?"
"No
well
yeah, no."
Hermione sent him a sideways glance. "I honestly don't believe I've met anyone
who could possibly be as articulate as you have been recently,"
she said with a grin.
Ron gave her a lopsided smile. Then his expression hardened a little. "It's just,
you know
everything that's been going on. It's
" He paused, as if trying to figure
out if he should go on.
Hermione looked up at him, letting him know
that he really could say whatever he wanted to say.
"It's scary, Hermione." Ron's expression as she said
those words was something Hermione could read quite perfectly. It was as if he was relieved to finally admit it, but
embarrassed to have done so.
Knowing she was taking a rather big risk
given Ron's attitude to any sort of physical contact over
the last four years, Hermione reached over and tugged Ron's
hand out of his pocket.
"It's all right," she said
softly, giving it a little squeeze before letting go again.
Ron looked over at her and appeared quite
disconcerted.
Hermione smiled gently. "We're all going to get through this together."
Nodding, and turning a slightest tinge of
pink, Ron stuck his hand back in his pocket.
"Ron, if you ever need to talk about
this, please come to me, it must be awful to keep all this bottled
up inside you."
"I know," he said quietly. "I just don't know if I'm ready to talk
about it yet. I'm still trying to figure it
out myself
" He
trailed off and looked positively dejected.
By now the two of them were back inside
the Hogwarts grounds. The other three had already headed
off inside.
Hermione stopped and looked up at Ron again,
who turned around to face her. "Well, whenever you need to talk, I'll be here
for you, ok?"
Ron smiled sadly and nodded again.
Then he did something that must have shocked
himself as much as it shocked Hermione. He put her arms around her and held her in a warm hug. "Thank you," he whispered into her hair after
a moment.
Hermione felt her heart beating as fast
as Ron's as she rested her head on his chest and hugged
him back. "You're very welcome."
She pulled away and smiled up at him. "You're a good hugger."
"I suppose I get it from Mum,"
Ron said with a wry grin, as his ears went pink.
You don't run with crowd
You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
Baby that's why you captured
my heart
Chuckling softly, Hermione wondered if Ron
really knew how she felt about him. Then again, he was a boy he probably didn't.
But she wasn't stupid. She had noticed everything that went on over the past
fours years, and she certainly knew what everything meant on
her part
Maybe today is as good a day as any to
let him know, and to get him to admit what he thinks about it
all
It might help him to keep his mind of everything else
that's going on
She wrapped herself up tighter in her cloak
and wandered down the grass to the lake, leaving Ron standing
behind her.
"Aren't you going back inside?"
he called out after her.
"It's nice out here, I just thought
I'd get some fresh air."
Ron walked up to her, his long strides quickly
covering the distance between them by that point. "We just walked to Hogsmeade and back, haven't
you had enough?" he questioned with a tone of mock incredulity.
With a shrug and a smile that Ron didn't
see, Hermione kept walking until they reached the edge of the
lake. She looked around and took a deep breath of the autumn air,
and as the wind blew about her, she pushed her hair out of her
face. "It's
nice out here, at this time of the year."
"And you're a poet and you didn't
even know it," Ron responded expressionlessly as he stood
next to her.
Hermione looked at him sideways with her
eyebrows raised, and then found herself doubled over and unable
to contain the peels of laughter that erupted from inside her.
"Well," said Ron, grinning himself,
"I was actually thinking that was one of my worse lines,
but if you liked it that much
"
Hermione shook her head as she tried to
get her breath back. "No," she gasped, still
giggling a little as she sat down on the grass, "That was
just so stupid I couldn't help but laugh at it." Continuing to shake from silent laughter, she lay down
on her back and looked up at the sky, which was a gloomy grey. It would probably rain later that night.
Ron sat himself down next to her. "So I take it you were just pulling my leg with all that
supportive friend nonsense?"
Hermione looked over to him and saw by his
smile that he was just teasing her. "Well, I must say, there are limits to my support,"
she said with a straight face, "And silly little lines
like that are certainly beyond the boundaries of what I can
condone and encourage."
"I suppose I can accept that, then."
Hermione smiled as she brought her hands
up behind her head and closed her eyes. She tried to think of some clever way to maybe bring
up a matter dealing with how she
felt.
But after a bit of a long silence, Ron brought
it up for her, although not in the most discreet of ways.
"So. How's Vicky," Ron asked. His tone was overly casual.
Hermione's eyes flew open at once and
she took a deep, and yet inaudible breath to try and keep herself
from laughing in Ron's face again.
"He's fine, I suppose," she
said offhandedly.
"You suppose?" Ron's level
of interest in the topic was obviously raised. "Haven't you been writing to him a lot? I mean,
since you didn't go to Bulgaria and everything, the least
you could do is write to him, right? That would've been polite and everything."
Hermione gingerly rubbed the bridge of her
nose with her thumb and her forefinger, for the sole purpose
of using her hand to hide a smirk that had uncontrollably spread
across her face.
Well, if he's going to make it this
easy
"Yes, I wrote to him a few times over
the summer. And he sent two letters this term,
although I haven't replied to the latest one
"
she explained nonchalantly.
"Oh," said Ron. He appeared to be willing to pursue the issue. "Why's that?"
"Well, I've been busy."
"Oh."
There was a heavy pause.
Hermione pushed herself up to a sitting
position, and turned to face Ron, who was sitting cross-legged,
poking at the grass with a small twig and an apparent amount
of purpose.
"So, why the sudden interest in Viktor?"
Ron snapped his head up. "What? Oh, no reason, I was just
you
know
making conversation." Poke. Poke. Poke.
"Right."
Poke. Poke. Poke. "You've been getting a lot of mail recently."
"You mean from my parents?"
"Parents?" Ron's face was suddenly rather red. Poke. Poke.
Keeping her face as neutral as possible,
she replied, "Of course. They've been worried about everything. I've been worried about everything. We promised to write every week."
"Ah. Good plan." Poke.
Hermione pushed on. "But really, you have been mentioning Viktor an
awful lot recently."
"Have I?" Poke. "Well, you
know, I thought, since everything with Vicky
I
thought you'd be writing to him a lot
" he trailed
off and wouldn't lift his eyes from the now very holy
ground. Poke. Poke.
"I've had more important things
to think about."
Ron looked up and stopped poking. "Really? Like
what?"
"Well, school for one," Hermione
replied casually, noting Ron's snort and the slight shake
of his head with good humour.
"And then Mum and Dad are probably
even more important than school, and of course," she paused
and looked Ron straight in the eye, "There's my friends."
Ron sort of smiled. "Well, that's nice to know," he said offhandedly.
Hermione raised her eyebrows. "What's nice? That you're more important to me than school?"
she asked with a grin.
Ron shifted around a little. The piece of twig and the holes in the grass were again taking
a lot of his attention. "Well, that too. But actually, I was sort of more surprised
that I'm
you know. More important than
Viktor." Poke.
"You silly sod," Hermione smiled,
"Of course you are. Why does that surprise you?"
"Well. He's
you know. An international Quidditch superstar," Ron
almost spat the last word. "And I'm just stupid old Ron. Harry Potter's best friend, number six of seven
Weasleys, who never does his homework right and whose only talent
is stupid chess." Poke. Poke. POKE.
I know sometimes you feel
Like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know
What you have within
When I look at you
I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere
And there's no one I know that
can compare
"Oh, Ron," Hermione couldn't
believe he was saying these things. She watched him as he glared at the grass, and felt absolutely
terrible. This
was supposed to cheer him up, not make him feel worse.
"Listen to me, Ron," she reached
out and grabbed his shoulders and pulled him around to face
her. "Do you
honestly think being Harry Potter's best friend makes you
unimportant?"
He didn't reply, but just looked at
her forlornly.
"Because then you're insulting
me as well as yourself, seeing as I'm Harry Potter's
best friend too. And I'll concede, you have a problem with messing about
with your homework, but how can you think you're stupid?"
she shook his shoulders. "And chess! You couldn't play chess the way you do if you were
stupid. Have
you, in some insane way, forgotten that it was you that
got us across Professor McGonagall's chessboard?"
Ron remained
silent.
"Oh, for crying out loud, Ron, if I
ever hear you saying something like that again,"
her eyes flashed dangerously as Ron blinked at her, "I
swear, I will make Neville hex you, and you certainly can't
want that."
Ron smirked a little. "Now there is a threat and a half,"
he said quietly.
Hermione smiled, but shook his shoulders
again and said, very seriously, "And don't you ever
think that you're just Weasley Number Six, Ron. Because you're not. You're Ron. Perfect, important, Ron." She stopped as she felt tears welling up in her eyes.
What makes you different
Makes you beautiful
What's there inside you shines
through to me
In your eyes I see all the love I'll
ever need
What makes you different
Makes you beautiful to me
Ron smiled his lopsided smile at her again. "Don't cry on me, Hermione."
She grinned. "If you promise never to put yourself down ever
again."
"Yeah, I suppose if I did that you
wouldn't have much to do," Ron said with a smirk.
Hermione blinked. She removed her hands from where they had been clenching
Ron's shoulders and wrung them together in her lap as she
moved her gaze down to them, blinking back her emotions.
Silence.
"I don't mean to "
She began but Ron cut her off.
"No, I was joking, I didn't mean
to say you insult me. I mean, it's fun, right, it's
what we do."
Hermione snorted. "Oh honestly, you're such a prat sometimes,
that's undeniable. I start pouring my heart out and you
start making jokes." She shook her head and laughed.
"Did you really mean that? What you said just now?"
Hermione looked up. "What, that you're perfect?" she barely
managed a whisper.
Ron nodded to answer her.
"Of course I did."
You got something so real
You touched me so deep
You see material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say
to you
What makes you different
Makes you beautiful
What's there inside you shines
through to me
In your eyes I see all the love I'll
ever need
What makes you different
Makes you beautiful to me
"You're my best friend. The guy who belched up slugs for me. The guy who went chasing after giant spiders to try and
get me to wake up. The guy who was willing to stand
up on a broken leg to protect Harry
The guy who makes me laugh and makes me cry like no one
else can," Hermione stoped herself at the expression of
awe that had dawned on Ron's face. She smiled, and continued on. "You act like a total prat half the time and yet
I wouldn't have it any other way
" she trailed
off, and looked out across the lake, wondering how she would
sound saying what she truly wanted to say to him.
In the silence that followed, Hermione suddenly
became very aware of how quickly she was breathing. She pulled her cloak around her and inhaled deeply.
"Wow," Ron whispered. His little poking twig rolled out of his hand and lay
forgotten by the tiny little divots in the grass.
You don't know
How you touch my life
Oh in so many ways I just can't
describe
You taught me what love is supposed
to be
It's all the little things that
make you beautiful to me
Hermione bit her lip and looked up at him. She reached over and cupped his face
in both of her hands. "I mean it, Ron. I want you to know that I mean it
with everything that's in me. You are one of the four most special people in my life
my parents, Harry and you. But you're something more, too,
Ron. Because I
I love you."
Ron just stared at her with his eyes wide,
and mouth open wider.
"Oh wow," he repeated softly,
once he managed to find his voice. "I can't believe you actually said that. That you had the guts to say that."
Hermione blinked again. "What do you mean?" she asked anxiously, as
she pulled her hands back.
Oh God. He doesn't
Oh God.
Ron let
out a little laugh, and took her hands in his. "What I mean is, I'm simply amazed at how you
managed to get those words out because I've been trying
to figure out how to do it for a bloody long while now."
Hermione rolled her eyes and smirked. "Oh is that what's been taking you so
long?"
Ron looked rather taken aback. "You knew? You
knew I
that I
" It seemed like it was still
hard to get the words out.
"You don't need to tell me. I know you do."
Ron blinked several times. "How
?"
"I can read you like a book, Ron Weasley,"
Hermione explained with a laugh. "And you of all people should know how good I am
at reading books."
Shaking his head, Ron just laughed. "So uh
since I'm so important and everything,
would it be all right if I
"
Hermione smiled as she watched Ron's
face turn very red. "Kissed me?" she supplied.
"Ten Points to Miss Granger."
What makes you different
Makes you beautiful
What's there inside you shines
through to me
In your eyes I see all the love I'll
ever need
What makes you different
Makes you beautiful to me
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